Red and Violent ✔️

Chapter 15: Self-love

You woke up while they were still asleep. You slowly got out of the bed. You searched for the hotel's notebook and wrote Jungkook a morning text.

"I'll be looking forward to kissing you tonight." You felt risky.

You walked out and got your morning routine over with. You went to the location and got ready. The moment the boys arrived, they greeted you. Jungkook approached you and subtly took you by the waste.

"I am looking forward to it, too."

"Kookie. Take your hands off me." You said trying to alarm him to the fact that the crew is watching. When you looked the other way you saw Eun Ae and Namjoon drinking some coffee together.

"I think he fell for her in no time." Jungkook commented.

"They are very much a like, to be honest. They'll do great." You said looking him in the eyes. "Now move in front of the camera!"

"What ever you say, noona." He said biting his lower lip. You wondered how you keep your hands to yourself.

You were done with the episode soon and it was about time you got back to the hotel to get your bags and go off to New York. The boys were going off to their own private jet and you were to take another plane. You arrived and settled. You weren't going to stay for more than a couple of days. It was a couple of interviews, a concert and you were off to Brazil. This trip is what you're looking for. The last time you went to Brazil was on spring break with your friends. You did way too many things that you couldn't remember because you were intoxicated.

The boys didn't get enough time to rest and they went for rehearsal. You stayed behind to edit and finalize the episode. After you were done you decided to take yourself on a date.

You miss New York pizza so much. You're a sucker for it, actually. You went into a small shop and ordered your favorite pizza.

You listened to some music by Wang Wen. You've always enjoyed their work. It always takes over every nerve cell sending messages of nothing but utter ecstasy. You might love them too much. An orgasm to your ear.

After you were done, you had a walk and decided on taking the subway and just have your day off. Since you started touring you haven't had your day off and this was your chance of at least a couple of hours to yourself.

You fear getting sucked into the spiral of being submerged with people and work you forget to self reflect and just pause. You always liked staying alone to recharge.

You haven't had time to process everything happening. You smiled when the first thought that came to your mind was the boys. They made this job more than just a job to get over with. Everyone of them made you ease into it. You actually feel dumb for ever worrying about being lonely. They manage to care so much about everyone around and regardless of all the surrounding noise, they have space for calmness in their hearts. Their laughs and their jokes can captivate you in an unending cycle of joy. Each one was special in their way and you liked their diversity and their unity all in the same time.

Then, Jungkook came to your mind. The thought made you blush. You might not have had enough time to bond but you could tell. You could tell that your soul, body, and mind relax when he's around. He seems to lift you up in an unintentional way. You feel thankful for him.

You still don't feel like you can open up. You feel like taking it one step at a time, one day at a time. You still fear investing too much in it.

You found yourself in Time's square. You loved it here. It bustled with life. It bustled with movement. It has unfathomable energy. Looking at street dancers, tin men, and listening to people playing music always made you appreciate the art in people. Art is in everyone. Those who appreciate it and those who create it are art. Humanity in itself was art to you.