Red and Violent ✔️

Chapter 49: Through Jungkook's Eyes 2

"Kaesolin?" I asked as she started fidgeting in bed. She looked like she was adjusting to the new lighting.

"How did we get here?" She asked. Her eyes were filled with terror. Like she's been abducted. I didn't want to make her any worrier so I had to act calm while I was panicking. I can't panic right in front of her.

"Your mum invited me in and ordered me a hot drink until you woke up." I said taking a sip of the now-cold tea. It was tasteless. I almost spat it out but I acted like it was nothing.

"What did she say?" She said in complete loss.

Her body shook and she tried to hide her face like her face held secrets that would be revealed if she showed me it. I stood up to embrace her. That's the only thing I think I'm capable of right now. I wish I had my hands tied with literal chains because those imaginary ones seem to deepen into my skin with worse pain than imaginable. I slowly approached her to find her pushing me away like I would electrocute her.

"Sorry, I don't want to be touched now." Maybe it's best to leave.

"Kaesolin, I don't know what happened between you two but I've got you right here. If you want us to leave we will."

"You'd be stupid if you think she'll let me out after all these years." She avoided my gaze like her life depended on it. I don't think I felt pain as bad as this. I feel like I want to crush all this walls and just get out of here. Run away.

"Stay here, Jungkook." She left the room before I could say anything.

I let my body go on the bed. I wanted to scream. Why is this all happening? That wasn't the childhood home trip that any boyfriend would go through. This is just too overwhelming and I want to just have a pause and rest. What do I do? Do I just run after her? I don't feel like I can endure anything right now. I just want to go back to the hotel and sleep. I want to go back home to Korea and sleep. I feel caught in a mesh of a black widow and I'm about to be eaten by her. Her mother looks like she's ready to execute someone. I was contemplating all the things I could do to get a chance at running away from this predicament.

Suddenly the door opened and someone started speaking in English. "Mrs. Kim wants you down, now, Sir." I bolted off the bed as fast as I could. I wasn't thinking when I went out running like I'm about to go and prevent Kaesolin's death penalty.

"You're an audacious bitch, Na Ri." I heard Kaesolin's Korean. The amount of disdain in her voice made me want to stop right there and go back to the room. But, again, there's enough history for her to act the way she's acting.

"It's hard to be in this home and be calculated. My heart is telling me to tackle you to your death but fortunately my brain is the one that guides my limbs." That didn't sound like the girl I fell for. That sounded like a foreign body taking over Kae's voice and I'd hate it to see her face as her mouth said those words.

"Oh, does Jungkook know this side of you?" I heard her mom's voice spreading a net of manipulation waiting for me to get stuck in it. I don't know what's happening but I know which side that should be taken. "I'm sorry for her attitude, Jungkook."

"Don't." The word got out of my mouth before my brain had the ability to calculate the consequences. I kissed Kae on her cheek to try and send her a message that I'm right here.

"Is that why you called for me? To hear this?" This isn't the Kaesolin I know.

All I know is that the person right in front of me is the reason she's acting the way she is. I took a glimpse at the security guard to find his hand on his gun. Why would he? How can a daughter be a danger to her mother. How much darker will this room get? Although my head is fucking with me right now, I just want to take Kae by the hand and run away.

"You've got yourself an impolite boyfriend. Birds of a feather, as they say." She shook her head.

"I thought Sejin would've broken you two up. I guess you'll lose your Hyundai contract, after all."

I held on to her hand so tight it felt like I was hurting her. I don't get it. I don't get it. This is a frustrating mathematical equation that my brain fails to calculate on its own. Sejin was doing this to protect our huge Hyundai contract? My work and the deal will be put off because of this woman? My hands couldn't let go. I started pulling Kaesolin. Maybe if I pull harder she'd get up and I'll have all my answers. I feel like I want to let go and run as far as I can. Maybe that would be an enough answer.

"Madam, can we leave?"

"Oh, honey, no one's leaving. You can see yourself outside if you don't want to be here. Catherine will stay."

She motioned for me to go outside like she's shooing a stray dog. I felt as lonely and overwhelmed as a stray dog on a rainy day. That woman felt like a storm. Like a hurricane that's about to take down every thing standing in its way.

I went out and stood at earshot from the room. Trying to get answers. I heard sentences I wish I didn't hear. At least not in that way.

"Na Ri, shut up! The only one sick here is you!"

"You never admitted your disorder as you walked around fucking with every one!"

"You're the one who pulled my hair because you were in a bad mood."

"Na Ri! You are the monster!"

"You always made illegal decisions to help you go through with whatever you wanted and my dad was the one who got you out of it every fucking time! You should be the one dead not him!"

Her tone got louder and louder like she's walking towards me. The words filled my ears like a song of death and I don't think I'll ever express how devoured by fear I was. Until I heard a click and I knew that gun was being loaded. I ran for the room to snatch Kae out of there. The moment I stepped into the room the pistol moved towards me and my heart lost the beat. A bullet to the heart would feel like an escape out of this mad house. It's like he pulled the trigger and paused me right where I am. My head blanked and my ears shut down. Until my ears started to catch up on what was being said.

"That's when I had to get rid of everyone. Your dad was this close to ending his life and I made sure he gets closer to that decision."

How can that be a family? How can this be a childhood and a home? I can't do this. I don't want my questions to be answered. I want to go back to mum. I need her embrace. She's a motherless mother and I want to go back to my dear mom's embrace.

"Your brother lost his mind when your dad passed. You know? Your brother is still alive somewhere. I just had to get rid of him so he wouldn't tarnish our family's name with his mental illness."

I shook my head and looked at Kaesolin. She wasn't there. Her eyes were blank like her soul left her body. Those eyes didn't belong to her. Why does she look so foreign? Why does she feel like a fragment of my imagination? This isn't where I should be.

"Can I go?"

I ran to the car. I ran for my life. I want to go to where things might make sense and that's not here. That will never be here.