Red and Violent ✔️

Chapter 35: Deeper

"Kaesolin! I'm so fucking bored I wanna go out!" Jungkook tugged at your sleeves as you were sleeping. Today was a day off for the boys. It was early in the morning. You grumpily grunted and turned to the other side.

"Kaesolin?" He chanted as he whispered in your ear, his fingers trailing on your waist as he started tickling you.

"I'm awake!" You screamed as you fell on the floor. Your hair was messy and it covered your eyes. You removed it away from your eyes to see Jungkook laughing.

"I'm such a powerful man." He said as he made a gun with his fingers and blew it like he just shot it.

"You're a powerful kid." You teased him and stuck your tongue.

"Don't." He warned you as he started getting up to run after you. Jungkook had a tongue fetish and he couldn't resist it when you stuck it out.

"What if I do?" You stuck it out to the side. He started running after you, immediately. Instead of running away you just stood there to be caught in his hug. He squeezed you in. You let out a grunt and turned around to face him. "Does my baby want to go to Disney?" You squeezed his cheeks and joked around with him.

"Can I?" He said seriously as you played with his cheeks. And squeezed in his lips.

"Wait, you really want to?" You let go of his cheeks.

"Please?" He pouted and gave you his irresistible puppy eyes.

"Sejin will kill us." You pouted and laid your head on his chest.

"If he finds out." He said as he went down to the level of your face and winked. It didn't take more than this for him to convince you.

"Okay, let's do this!" You said and ran for your bag.

You got out a hoodie with Minnie mouse on it. You don't remember when you got it or where it came from, all you know is that it got there. You saw Jungkook taking a hoodie with Mickey mouse on it.

"Jungkook, were you the one who got me this and planted it in my bag?" You raised your eyebrows. He looked at you guiltily.

"Mmhhmmm." He nodded.

"Jeon Jungkook you've been planning this all along and you've been brainwashing me for it?"

You put the shirt down and ran to him. You jumped over his back and tried tackling him to the floor.

"You sneaky bastard! I love you." You both laughed and he held your hands that were locked around his neck and walked you to the bed and put you on it. He took the hoodie and put it in your hand.

"Put it on. We've got roller coasters to ride."

"But, I want Mickey." You cried adorably like a baby. He sighed and shook his head.

"No." He started putting the Mickey hoodie on.

"I want Mickey!" You started stomping on the floor. He looked at you with adoring eyes. He smiled at your cute actions and took the hoodie off and threw it at you.

"Yay!" You sang as you gave him your Minnie hoodie and wore his. His hoodie was large in size on you and yours was just a bit tight on him.

You loved how you just can be childish with him. How he doesn't freaking give a fuck about his age or yours. He just enjoys things even if it was for a 10 year-old. He let out the cheesy kid in you and you loved her.

You could spend the nights trying to braid each other's hair. You tried teaching him but he always ended up putting your hair in knots. One day, while you were braiding his hair you started talking about your illness. You told him you won't tell him what it's called. Rather, you'll tell him how it is.

"Wait let me turn around I need to be looking at you as you speak."

"I'll tie your braid, then." His hair wasn't long enough for a full-on braid but you did your best. He turned around, still sitting on the floor and looked up at you as you spoke.

"I won't say the big medical title because I don't want you to freak out." You said playing with the hem of your hoodie.

"I doubt that I will, but, go on." He held your knees and you looked away from him as you spoke.

"Well, I have this thing where my mood is unstable." You tried to word it as simple as possible. He nodded and followed your eyes.

"I used to have those phases of having an extremely high mood, like I'm on ecstasy. Everything shines and everything is interesting. I don't sleep for almost a week or more and I have zero attention. This showed when I was about 12. I went haywire. I would run around our house for 10 times and don't get tired. I'd laugh at things that weren't funny. I would go around tell people how much I love them and love myself. It all sounds nice in theory."

"But, in real life, I wasn't able to lead a normal life when I was in this state. They would send me back home from school because I was too loud. They would call me a troublemaker and say that I'm up to no good."

"When this episode was over I would go into deep depression for months. I would have the darkest thoughts and zero energy. I had zero self esteem and I attempted suicide a couple of times in a month." You swallowed and looked at the other side of the room.

"I also had to skip school in such episodes. I was put under supervision for almost 2 months away from school and they could pin-point what I suffered from. When they did, I started taking medications that stabilized me and I started to incline fast in school I skipped a couple of years because I was "too smart". I went on and off but I had my father and my brothers to support me. Anyways, When I'm non-compliant I'd have those seizures you've seen back that day." You started to tear up. He still knows nothing about your family. You won't be able to, now. You felt his finger trailing on you cheeks to direct your face towards him.

"If you want to stop here, we can take this conversation for another time." He said brushing your tears away.

"So?" You expected him to say something about it. Like, that it must've been hard or something.

"Thank you." He hugged you tight then broke the hug, "Can I try and braid your hair?" He asked cutely.

The story didn't even bother him. You didn't feel a slight change in his body. It's like you were talking about a normal school day or something mundane. You smiled huge, and nodded for a yes. That's when you started feeling safe. That's when you didn't mind opening up more. Your phone's background was you and  him in the braids you made him and the braids he attempted to make.  You're almost out of London and London has witnessed your love growing in all pure and impure ways.

You guys were ready for Disney and you sneaked out for the day that was awaiting you.