Red and Violent ✔️

Chapter 46: Running Away From You

When you woke up to Jungkook's voice with you laying in bed you thought this was nothing but a shitty nightmare. Until your eyes caught on the posters on the walls. You had vintage movie posters all around your childhood room. The room hasn't changed one bit. It's like no one touched a thing from the day you left. You never thought that that would be the way you find the room after 7 years. Jungkook had his coat off. You suddenly jumped out of the bed.

"How did we get here?" You asked frantically.

"Your mum invited me in and ordered me a hot drink until you woke up." He said as he was drinking the tea. You shook your head. Maybe if you shook it for long enough you'll understand what's happening.

"What did she say?" You said as you were still shaking your head. You put your face in your palms as you were shaking. Jungkook put the cup on the bedside table and stood up to hold you. You pushed him away. "Sorry, I don't want to be touched now."

"Kaesolin, I don't know what happened between you two but I've got you right here. If you want us to leave we will."

"You'd be stupid if you think she'll let me out after all these years." You walked past him and got out of the room. "Stay here, Jungkook." You ordered him without even looking back.

Jungkook felt so intimidated by you. He's never seen you this stern and determined. You looked like you were about to go commit a murder. He contemplated going behind you for so many times you were already half way to where you knew she was. Your steps were too strong and too calculated. You opened the door of the office room to find her sitting on her skull chair. A 500,000$ chair your mum bought for herself. It was of pure 24k gold. Whenever she's sitting on that chair, she looks like she's planning for world's dominion. She was sitting like she heard you coming all the way from your room. You looked up the chair to find her guard standing with a gun on his side.

"That gun will be used to kill me, too?" You pointed at it as you sat on the opposite chair.

"It's a safety protocol." She smiled as you sat down. You hated every syllable that came out of her mouth. She reminded you of how much you once hated Korean.

"Weird. The only time I thought of a safety protocol was to get as far away from the reach of you." You spat. "You're an audacious bitch, Na Ri." She laughed so hard.

"It never gets old." She said holding her wine glass. She didn't start sipping. "You're quite calculated this time, Catherine." She said finally taking a sip.

"It's hard to be in this home and be calculated. My heart is telling me to tackle you to your death but fortunately my brain is the one that guides my limbs."

"Oh, does Jungkook know this side of you?" She said as she looked behind you. You turned around to find Jungkook standing out the opened door. His eyes were wide. "I'm sorry for her attitude, Jungkook."

"Don't." He said as he walked in and kissed your cheek. "Is that why you called for me?" He asked with an eyebrow raised. "To hear this?" Jungkook was overwhelmed. He didn't understand what was happening but he had a bad feeling about Na Ri. He's never seen you the way you are except when you met her. He wanted to ask all the questions and get all the answers. His first instinct was to take you and run away, however.

"You've got yourself an impolite boyfriend. Birds of a feather, as they say." She shook her head.

"I thought Sejin would've broken you two up. I guess you'll lose your Hyundai contract, after all." And that's when everything fell into place. Sejin was doing it to protect their huge Hyundai contract. Your blood boiled with fury. You clenched Jungkook's hand so hard you felt his eyes flicker with pain.

"Madam, can we leave?" He said trying to pull you off the chair. When he heard this you saw his face getting redder than crimson blood.

"Oh, honey, no one's leaving. You can see yourself outside if you don't want to be here. Catherine will stay." She motioned for him to go outside arrogantly. He looked at you. You nodded and he left. Your silent conversation made your mom raise her eyebrows. Her face was too tight she looked plastic.

"He'll run away, one day, Catherine. He can't handle your condition." She chuckled like she just made a joke.

"He won't." You blurted.

"Aahhh!" She exclaimed. "Being part of this mentally ill family took a toll on my health."

"Na Ri, shut up!" You clenched your fist.

"The only one sick here is you!" You shouted.

"Everyone in this house sought treatment. You always rejected it! If anyone is ill, it's you! You never asked for help. You never admitted your disorder as you walked around fucking with every one! Dad wasn't the one who was sick because as much as I remember you were the one who hit my hands too hard when I made a mistake while playing the piano. You're the one who pulled my hair because you were in a bad mood. You walked around the house slapping maids and acting like you owned every body. You were the one who almost sent my brother to juvie because he didn't want to study mechanical engineering. Na Ri! You are the monster!"

You weren't crying. You weren't shaking. You were standing up tall and erect. You spat every word that came to mind. You started walking towards her and you sensed the guard putting his hand on his pistol.

"You always made illegal decisions to help you go through with whatever you wanted and my dad was the one who got you out of it every fucking time! You should be the one dead not him!" You walked too close the guard loaded his gun. That's when Jungkook ran in. The guard directed the pistol towards Jungkook. You screamed. Your mum raised her hand so that the guard would put his gun down.

"Well, looks like I'm the bad guy after all." She shook her head and smacked her tongue.

"I'm inherently bad after all?" She closed her eyes tightly.

"You are the stupid bitch who wanted to follow her dreams and study film just because her father didn't get the chance to follow his own dreams."

"I'm the one who had to watch you deteriorate and go into your psycho episodes and watch from afar because I knew you'd never want me there. All I was doing was to get you where you should've all been! You chose this shit path of a career. All I was doing was to glue this empire together as you sickos derailed."

"I am the bad guy! I'm the one who didn't deserve love in this family. I'm the one who had to watch every one of you run to your father's embrace before thinking about me. You never came to hug me. You never looked at me the way you looked at your father. I was helping you all get to what you should've reached. You all were too stupid to understand!" She was sitting there with her eyes still closed and her voice still steady.

"That's when I had to get rid of everyone. Your dad was this close to ending his life and I made sure he gets closer to that decision. Your brother lost his mind when your dad passed." She breathed hard like a lion waiting for its prey.

"You know? Your brother is still alive somewhere. I just had to get rid of him so he wouldn't tarnish our family's name with his mental illness." She opened her eyes to find you standing and looking at the guard.

You looked back at Jungkook and watched his deranged eyes. His eyes showed pain and brokenness like he was mirroring your insides.

"Can I go?" Jungkook asked as his eyes watered.

"My driver is waiting for you outside." She said. Jungkook ran out and left you behind with her. You were still pinned to where you were standing and the blood seeped out of your body. You fell down on your knees and cried.

"Can I go, please?" You heard your 10 year-old self begging after a session of beating.

You always ended up on your knees begging for her to stop hitting you and let you go. You always ended up on your knees begging for her to give back your camera. She was the vengeful god that you feared and begged on your knees for his mercy. You put your forehead on the floor.

"Please, mom, forgive me. I just want to go and play with Gaven." That wasn't you. That was all the previous traumas hitting you like a wrecking ball. Your insides fell and your inner child came out to beg, once again, for freedom.