The girl with secrets

Twenty Nine

It's now Thurday and tomorrow i'm allowed to go back to school.

I get up and walk downstairs and everyone looks at me.

"Are you alright honey?" my mom asks

"yep" i say sitting down

"why wouldn't i be?" i ask

"you just seemed a bit-"

"angry? upset? heartbroken?" i say and she looks at me wearily

"yeah...." she says with her voice trailing off

"well i'm not, I'm all good. I'm just hungry that's all" i say

I've blocked everything about that boy out of my head.

I don't need him.

Yes he made me happy, yes he was the only one who truly understood me. Who needs them people anyway? Am i right?

That boy isn't even coming to my thought process today, i'm not going to waste any brain cells on that boy.

5 hours later.

I've packed. I've packed swimming costumes, joggers, raincoats, hoodies, leggings, shorts, tops... everything.

You can never be too prepared.

I'm not looking at the weather either because i don't trust that an app can tell me what the weather is going to be.

It freaks me out know they know that. Like what else are they hiding?

Anyway, enough of my very very reduced conspiracies.

My phone rings to see a facetime of Ryder.

"Hey ryder what's up?" i ask as i answer the call

I see his face on the screen, "nothing we all want to say hi!" he says spinning the camera round and he goes past everyone

Everyone smiles and says hi and then he goes fast past Finn and i see Sarah sat on his lap and i get the gut wrenching feeling again.

"You okay?" i ask him

"No" Ace says

"what's up?" i ask him

"Sarah is coming with us on spring break" he says

"WHAT!" i shriek

"Holly you coming in tomorrow?" Bella asks

"yeah i am" I say

"Yay! we've missed you" i hear freya says

"i've missed you too" i say

"Holly can i have a word" I hear Finn say

"I've got to go" i say and i see Finn appear on the screen and Sarah in the corner

"Bye!" i say sweetly and hang up before throwing my phone on my bed but it ending up landing on the floor.

Thank god I've got carpet on the floor. If not it would be fucked.

Much like my life really.

I get up and look in the mirror.

My brown hair is growing out and you can see the blonde hair showing.

I don't care.

I'm going back blonde.

I dyed it brown because people made fun of me saying that i was stupid when i was younger. They would pick on me when i was alone.

Finn would always help and when he was with me they wouldn't say anything but when i was alone they would all warm around me shouting insults at me.

But now.