"i'm sorry"// daniel seavey

part ten

after the arms snakes in between my arms, i felt safe. i knew it was daniel right away from the first touch. i feel so comfortable with him and that's crazy because i have never trusted a guy ever since that happened with him. i never really opened up about the situation with someone else other than my parents, brian, and mariah. so it has been bottled up and thrown in the back of my mind but usually it comes up and i cry about it. my tears are coming down faster n louder. i try not to make it obvious to the others but daniel is heat with me and that's the only way i want it to be. daniel is humming to try to calm me down and it's kind of working. he removes his arms and comes up in front of me.

daniel: hey what's wrong??
alex: every time i come here i only feel scared n sad. this is the only time i felt happy at the spot.
daniel: why is that?
alex: i don't know if i'm ready to tell you because it's something really big but only my parents, brian n mariah knows what happened.
daniel: if you're not ready then i totally respect that so i'll just be here to comfort you. i'll do anything to make you feel n be safe.
alex: but you just met me?!
daniel: okay so? i feel like i've known you my whole life after the talks we had today. i really do care about you alex even tho we just met like a couple of hours ago. it's crazy. i never felt this way with anyone.
alex: really ?
daniel: yes really alex. just know that i will always be here for you no matter what. you don't need to talk. i just want to make you feel comfortable and safe and just know you do have people who love you and would want to help you all the time. i don't know what happened here or what connection you have with this spot but all i know that is that i'll be here for you when you wanna open up and that's if you want to
alex: dani you're the sweetest and thank you for being with me. it feels like i've known you for years but it's crazy to say that we met just hours ago
daniel: it really is crazy
alex: yeah. one more hug??
daniel: anything for you

i smile at what he said n we hug. one of the best hugs. we're rocking back n forth. he's rubbing my back and is again humming a small tune to make me not think about what this spot means to me. soon the tears fade n dry. i wipe them away. i miss a spot so daniel takes his sleeve n gently wipes the remaining follows sty tears on my cheeks.

i take his hand and bring him to the rest of the group. mariah looks at me to see if i'm okay. i gave her a reassuring nod and she takes half of it. i mouth to her that we'll talk later. so she nods and goes back to talking with jonah

a couple of minutes later i get a text from baba

baba💛: are you guys gonna come home now or what?
alex💜: yeah we'll leave in a bit. see you soon
baba💛: okay stay safe n i love you
alex💜: we will n i love you too

i turn down the music to get everyones attention

alex: my dad just texting telling us to come home so yeah
zach: aweee okayyy
corbyn: can we hang out tomorrow???
mariah: most likely yeah
jack: yayayaya
daniel: well text me when you get home safely.
alex: i will don't worry

we all hug bye and i save daniel for my last hug. it was a good hug as always. he whispers to me

daniel: text me if you need anything and everything
alex: i will
daniel: i'm always here for you
alex: i appreciate that n i'm always here for you too
daniel: good because i wouldn't have it any other way

we pull apart from each other and i take his hand in mine. they go in their car and we go in mine. we let them leave first. once they're out of my sight i scream.

brian: woah what's your problem??
alex: this was the best day ever
mariah: i totally agree.

i start my car and we head out of the spot. i look at it one more time and i head out.

hopefully the spot will be happy memories instead of sad n trauma

after 15ish minutes, we finally made it home

alex💜: we made it home safely
daniel🤤: okay good thanks for letting me know i'll tell the other guys.

we say hi to my dad. my mom already fell asleep. we go upstairs. i hug brian goodnight and we make it to my room. mariah n i change into pjs and we get into bed.

mariah: so wanna tell me what happened??
alex: fine but i'll make it quick because i'm tired.

so i explained everything that went on from when they came to when they left. i explained that daniel said to me on the hood of my car to when i was crying to when it was our last hug of the night. i explained what brian said too

mariah: brian is true. you need to have that mindset to actually have it work
alex: i know so i am gonna have that mind set don't worry.
mariah: good i'm so proud of you but are you ever gon to tell daniel what happened??
alex: maybe. i don't know for sure.
mariah: okay. if you're gonna tell him do it when your comfortable and ready. and i know he'll understand and make you feel safe
alex: yeah thanks mariah.
mariah: that's what i'm here for
alex: of course well goodnight dipshit
mariah: goodnight to you too dumbass

i turned off my lights and fell asleep thinking about daniel

same bestie i fall asleep y about daniel too