"i'm sorry"// daniel seavey

part thirty nine

me n daniel are heading home as the others go to the store to buy snacks for the movie marathon.

alex: was it bad to not tell them that i attempted?
daniel: you didn't even need to tell them the whole jacob situation. you didn't need to tell me.
alex: i felt like every deserved to know
daniel: no one needed to know. it was just up to you.
alex: well i wanted to tell y'all because it's been almost 4 months wit y'all.
daniel: still you didn't owe anyone anything.
alex: okay well i get it. i just needed to tell y'all. it's been eating me up ever since the first time i had a breakdown right in front of you. i wanted to tell you but i just couldn't. i-
daniel: hey alex. you're okay n i'm always here for you no matter what. let's just let go of this for now n make our way home
alex: yeah okay

i put my one direction playlist on n the volume was at a low setting so i would really have to focus to listen to it. n i like it that way. it was like that after mariah saved me. soon enough we made it back home. daniel parks my car n i head out n to our house. daniel follows me. i don't say anything then i make it up to my room n daniel was about to come in but i stopped him.

alex: im just gonna change don't worry
daniel: just don't lock your door
alex: okay

i close my door n break down crying one again. but silently so daniel doesn't hear me.

i just wanna scream. why am i so broken? why do i have to be like this? why did jacob have to break me in a million pieces? why me? why?

i slowly make it to my dresser to pick out pajamas. i barely feel like moving but i have to. for the sake of daniel n everyone else. n me. i have to be strong.

i pick out black nike joggers n a pink crop top. i slowly but surely put on the clothes n i make my way to the door n i open it to see daniel still there. he smiles at me n takes my hand n leads me back to their place.

i sir on the couch as he gives me a blanket. n he sits next to me but not too close. as we get comfortable, everyone comes in the house wit snacks n different movie ideas. the boys go to the kitchen even daniel n mariah makes her way to me. she just hugs me. i needed a hug from her again. i start crying again but quietly for only the both of us to hear.

mariah: you're the most strongest person i know alex. just telling everyone was the biggest step ever n i'm proud of you for that. now he shall not be named is gonna get a restraining order from you n me n everyone around you just in case he gets close to us again. to you. i love you so much alex. i would love to kill him but that's not an option. but if law wasn't in the question i would've already. anyway let's just relax n try to forgot about it. we're all here for you n you know especially me.
alex: i know. thank you mariah. for the millionth time.
mariah: you don't need to thank me. but i did call brian...
alex: really?? did you tell him?
mariah: kinda... please don't be mad at me
alex: i'm not. i was gonna tell him soon anyway.
mariah: he's also-

right before she could finish her sentence the door opens n i see brian.

mariah: -here now

brian comes running to me n gives me the longest hug ever. i wish brian was there with me tonight. soon he let's go n sits next to me. i explain more to him n he gets furious then sad n he starts crying while saying he's gonna kill jacob.

brian: how can he do that again n bring back those disgusting memories. i am going the kill him. why- i just- i'm so sorry alex.
alex: hey please don't actually kill him. we're all gonna get a restraining order on him n hopefully after that i'll be fine
brian: i'll try not to hurt him

daniel's pov

i see brian rush in the house n to alex n that makes me happy that now he's here for her. i direct my attention back at the boys.

jack: so what happened when you first got there?
daniel: well i ran up the hill n i saw her standing at the edge n i grabbed her but she ran back n i stopped her again by pulling her back n hold her in a tight hug n i had to calm her down for a bit-
corey: wait she was about to jump?
jonah: she didn't tell us that
daniel: oh fucking shit. i just told you guys didn't i?
zach: uh yeah
daniel: she didn't want you guys to know she tried to jump. she felt bad not telling you guys but i told her she didn't owe us anything n yeah. but i accidentally just told you guys so i would love it if you forgot about this whole situation n not say a word to her bout that topic. got it?
everyone: got it
daniel: especially you zach
zach: okay that's just rude
daniel: lets just all face it you suck at this stuff
zach: no i don't
everyone wit daniel: yes you do
zach: okay fine don't worry i'll be extra careful
daniel: good. well it looks like they're done talking so let's go to them wit all the popcorn n snacks

end pov

the boys come back wit all the snacks n they grab blankets n sir on all the couches. mariah moves to sit wit jonah n brian went to the bathroom so i had a empty spot next to me. i looked at daniel n signaled for him to come. he first sat down far from me but at the end of the first movie we were snuggling n it felt amazing. after all the stuff happened being close wit him never affected me or gave me memories which is weird. but it's good. soon enough i fell asleep during the second movie they chose.

i love them all together