"i'm sorry"// daniel seavey

part thiry seven

IMPORTANT!! this chapter will talk about r@pe, verbal and physical @buse, panic attacks, and suicid@l thoughts and actions. read with caution !!

alex: hello dani-

i say that as i turn around. i look up to see daniel but to my surprise it wasn't. it was my ex... jacob

jacob: missed me baby?

i couldn't say anything. tears just weld in my eyes n start to spill. i'm in shock n every memory from when i was wit him replay in my mind. i'm frozen. he tighten his grip on my waist n i can't breathe.

jacob: answer me bitch
alex: i-
jacob: speak up now

i cant breathe. i'm having a panic attack. i'm frozen. my chest is closing in on me. i cant wiggle my hands to help me. i shut my eyes close hoping that this is just a horrible dream

jacob: open your eyes now

i open my eyes to see that he's still there.

so not just a dream. i just wanna die. right now.

as jacob gets closer to me, i hear david yelling at me. david comes closer n sees that i'm frozen stuff n that jake is on me.

david: aye bitch let go of her
jacob: what are you her boyfriend?
david: i'm the host of this party. so guess what bitch you're out of here.

then security guards comes n takes jacob off of me. i finally take a breath n i'm still having my panic attack. i start to wiggle my hands n try to count backwards from 100 by 3. david looks at me n starts to worry

david: alex you okay?
alex: that was- that...i-i cant

i just book it. run out of the place n get my keys. i drop it on the floor so i pick it up n get into my car as david is running out the place to me. i start my car

david: alex wait-

then i drive off as i'm sobbing. tears are staining my face. i know the exact place i need to go. the spot. the hill top. not even 10 minutes later i make it up there n park the car. i sit in there n cry even more. i wanna die. i thought i would never see him again. but i did n he touched me. AGAIN. i cant handle this. i get out my car.

daniel's pov

i'm dancing to the music wit corey n zach. alex told me she was going to the bathroom so i never thought anything of it. then i hear yelling from david. which is normal. a minute later i see david running towards me. then i just start to worry

david: bro you need to leave now
daniel: what happened?
david: i saw someone on alex n then when i asked her if she was okay she just ran off n started crying
daniel: shit okay uh corey give me your keys
corey: here

corey gives me his keys. i start running then mariah comes at me

mariah: where are you going?
daniel: alex. something happened n she took off
mariah: shit lemme come
daniel: it's fine. i got this. do you have an idea of where she could be?
mariah: the spot.
daniel: where is that?
mariah: the hill top
daniel: i remember that. okay going
mariah: text me wit updates

i start running to corey's car i literally speed to the hill top. i make it there in 6 minutes. i park n run up the cliff. i see. alex. sobbing. n standing at the tip of the cliff

end pov

i'm sobbing. so hard. screaming at this point. i keep contemplating on jumping off the cliff. then i back out. then keep going to the tip. i hear a car so i get closer to the edge. i was bout to jump when someone grabs me like a hug n jolts me away from the edge. i get up n run back to the edge about to jump when they pulled me back again n hugged me so tightly. i cant get out