"i'm sorry"// daniel seavey

part twenty eight

daniel: okay we'll wait for you guys in ours. just come in when you're done.
alex: okay thanks dani

the guys head all back inside

i sit up on my car n mariah sits on her. i call my mom first n we talk for a bit. asking me about how the stuff is n how the boys are. n how my room was coming along. i told her that i'll send her a photo of my room. she agreed n then she had to end the call because she needs to sleep. so i told her goodnight n then she ended the call. i quickly called my dad before he sleeps too. we talked n he asked if any of the guys did anything. typical baba. i told him no n i told him that brian is on his way back home. then baba had to go too because he needs to sleep. say goodnight n now the call just ended.

i head over to mariah n she just finished her call with her mom. mariah doesn't have a dad. he passes away 5 years ago. it was really hard for her but i helped her every step of the way. n now she's doing better. every anniversary of his death is pretty hard on her but she's the strongest girl i know. aside from mama but yeah. she finishes her call wit her mom. n she looks at me.

mariah: so spill. what the fuck happened??
alex: so when we finished i sat on my bed n before i came back here from my parents he facetimed me n i said make me n i guess that turned him on. so he remembered that n then he pushed me and got on top of me. he of course asked me if this was okay n not triggering anything.
mariah: n it didn't?
alex: surprisingly it didn't
mariah: i'm proud of you. that's good news.
alex: thanks baby. n yeah it is. but continuing on. we kept staring at each other then he started giving me hickeys n then zach came knocking so he jumped off of me. then when zach left i got onto his lap n gave him hickeys n grinding my ass on him
mariah: ALEXXXX!!
alex: i know right. but then i felt him getting a boner so i stopped to tease him n that's pretty much it.
mariah: wow that was a better story then i expected
alex: haha yep
mariah: since we're telling stories about our new crushes i have something to admit.
alex: n what is it?
mariah: jonah admitted to having feelings for me.
alex: OH. MY. GOD. BITCHHHHHHH
mariah: my exact reaction.
alex: okay what did you tell him????
mariah: i told him that i have a mini crush on him
alex: mini?? yeah right
mariah: shut the fuck up.
alex: just saying
mariah: anyway. but i told him that we need to take things slow because you remember what happened wit jake when we moved so fast.
alex: i told you that y'all done messed up.
mariah: i know. i know. but jonah explained how he was thinking the same thing.
alex: i feel we're freshies again n we're talking about our crushes.
mariah: i know this feels childish but i mean if it's for the right person then i don't care to be honest.
alex: yeah i guess you're right.
mariah: i know i always am
alex: fuck you.
mariah: i mean we can go to my room n get it started

she gives me a smirk n winks at me. we're always like that. so many people think we're lesbians n there's nothing wrong wit that but we're not. we're just really close best friends haha

alex: i mean say lessssss
mariah: haha but we had a really eventful day.
alex: we really did. i got a second job as my favorite band's personal photographer.
mariah: n we moved into their guest house
alex: i got hickeys n gave the daniel seavey a boner
mariah: jonah marais admitted he has a crush on me.
alex: n finally i didn't think of my ex when someone was on top of me
mariah: n i'm so very proud of you for that. like that's a big step.
alex: thank you. n it's all thanks to you n brian.
mariah: no it's not. it's all thanks to you. you should be acknowledging that you did that. you pushed it out of your brain n it worked. that's all the hard work you put into this situation. so be proud of yourself n take all the credit because YOU did that alex
alex: wow. i really did. i never thought that this would be possible.
mariah: well it is possible because you just did it.
alex: yeah i did. wow. i'm so happy right now. i didn't notice how big it was in the moment but again wow  
mariah: see. i'm beyond proud of you.
alex: well i say it's time for us to go to the guys.
mariah: lets go babyyyyy

i jump off her jeep n she soon follows. i take her hand n i pull her in a right hug. we soon let go of each other n her hand intertwined wit mine n we head to the guys house. i walk in wit a big smile. because i'm just really proud of myself. we make it in n i shut the door behind me. corbyn sees me smiling like crazy

corbyn: what you smiling like that for?
alex: i'm just really happy
jack: about?

i don't wanna tell em why because i'll expose me n daniel n what we did. n i don't wanna tell em about my ex just yet. so

alex: just that all of this happened. i got my dream job as a photographer for my favorite band. we moved into yalls guest house n yeah
daniel: so we're your favorite band?

i wanna be alex so badly bruh