Can I help you?

Chapter 13

Hoseok nears Jin. "Do you kiss someone without even loving them?" Jin is still quiet. "Did you fall for her at first sight?" Like I did? "Did you remember it all now?" "STOB IT! Stop asking me these questions. I don't know, okay?!" Jin is irritated and turns around. He tries to escape from Jhope, but Jhope pushes Jin slightly hard on his shoulder back. "Tell me." Jin takes on a hostile posture and his eyes are glaring with anger, and yet also confusion. "I told you, I don't. fucking. know." Jhope is shocked at hearing Jin using his rare cursing voice. He decides is wiser to back off for now. Jin walks off and this time Jhope let's him go.

Sarah closes the window after seeing Jin like that. She is scared. "I have never seen this kind of Jin before. It's scary." She looks behind her to the window and holds her arm. "I never want to go through that again." She squats as she remembers something that happened in her past. She sits down against the wall and hugs her legs. Mary comes in the room and sees Sarah in that position and immediately runs to her. "Sarah! Sarah, he is not here, he won't hurt you!" Mary hugs Sarah. Doenja pops her head behind the door. "What is happening?" "Sarah is thinking about that again." Doenja runs towards Sarah. "EMMA!" Emma hears her name from the first floor, where she was playing with the maknealine a boardgame. She gets up in no time and rushes up the stairs. Doenja shouts at Emma in the door. "CODE RED WHITE BLUE!" Emma is quick on the uptake and runs to the kitchen, grabs a bottle of water and runs back up. The maknae line looks at this panic. "What's wrong?" V asks. Emma stops. "Can'ttalkcoderedwhiteblue" and is back up. "code red white blue?" They all look at each other, not quite getting it. They go up and see how the 3 women are huddling up around Sarah. Mary softly humming a calming song. They all seem to speak in their native language, so the others can't understand it. They ask if they can do something but Emma just waves them away. They close the door and just go back down.

After a good 20 minutes the 3 ladies come back down. The other members of BTS have gathered in the living room. "Is everything okay?" RM wants to know. They nod. "She is asleep now." "What is code redwhiteblue?" Jimin asks. The 3 don't seem like they want to say. "Let's just say she is going through some tough thoughts." Doenja glances at Jin and Jhope. They see and just know it is about them. They look down to their hands and guilty. The other members decided to drop it.

The next day, each starts to work again. Sarah takes Emma out for a drink in a cafe. Emma is holding her tea. Sarah is enjoying a piece of cake. She offers Emma some but Emma refuses. She sees that an employee is getting send home, but doesn't really think about it that much. They chat about work, and Sarah seems a bit better. She still looks paler than usual and tired. She had nightmares all night. Waking up in the middle of the night, holding her arms in front of her and above her head. Doenja shoved her bed next to Sarah's to hold onto her during the night. So all of them didn't get enough sleep. "I'm so sorry. I hate it too. I can't help it. I went to a psychologist for it before, but it didn't help me." "That's okay, we are your friends, and love you so much." Sarah smiles. "It means a lot to me. I just don't want to ever get into something like that again." Emma nods. "Understandable. No one wants that." They fall quiet. "So, Italy eh?" Sarah looks outside. "Yup." And again quiet. "I did get the approval from the office. They like our itinerary. Now we will need to go into the next step of planning: the organizing. I will rely on you for this. We must make this a success!" Emma can hear stress in Sarah's words again. Why is she so focused on getting success? Why can't she just enjoy it? Emma drinks the rest of her tea. They go back home.

Jin is cooking dinner. Sarah is just lounging on the sofa. She is feeling slightly queasy. Maybe I ate something wrong... When the dinner is finally on the table, Sarah takes a seat, planning only to eat something light, but she suddenly needs to run to the bathroom. Emma follows and holds her hair, while patting her back. Jin and Jhope look at each other, and pale up. No way... Jhope swallows and looks shocked at Jin too. They both look at the downstairs toilet. Emma returns without Sarah. "Is she okay?" Jimin asks concerned. Emma smiles as in not to worry them. "She is resting upstairs. She will skip dinner. She said sorry to Jin." Emma sits down and Doenja grabs her arm and her eyes seem to talk to Emma, and Emma talks back with her eyes. After dinner Jhope pulls Jin into the kitchen and whispers urgently, but without others hearing it. "Do you think she is pregnant?" Jin swallows, he couldn't say that thought out loud. "It could be, first yesterday that code redwhite thing, she is going through some thoughts according to her friends and now nauseated..." RM sees them whispering about. What is up with these two? One moment they look like they are fighting, and now they are conspiring? I really don't get them.... "What should we do Jin?" "What do you mean? What can we do? Tell her to get rid of it? Keep it? Marry her?" Both are quiet. "Who marries her? Who's kid is it anyway?" Both fall quiet again. "I'll do it. I love her, Jin. From the moment I saw her." Jin looks at this sudden confession. He feels a sting in his heart. "No, I'll do it." "Why?" Jhope asks suspiciously. "I love her too." His heart feels so much better now. So light.