Can I help you?

Chapter 18

Sarah is laying down on the couch and is panting. She quickly covers herself with her dress. The ice cream is melted and on the floor. "W-why Jin..." She asks, after both found their composure again. "It is your fault. You were licking and eating that ice cream and I... and I..." "So just because I was licking the ice cream you decided that I should cream myself at your hands? Newsflash, I have sensitive teeth. I can never bite into cold stuff without being in torturous pain. I have found a way to eat ice cream without pain. That's all. Ask my friends. I alway eat ice cream like that..." Jin suddenly feels ashamed at himself for being that called out by a misunderstanding. Sarah finds her panty on the floor and quickly wears it, she just puts on the dress and grabs the bra. She needed to change into pajamas anyway. "T-this can't happen Jin. I made a promise. Please clean his up, I should go to my room." She points at the melted ice cream on the floor and runs up to her room.

In her room she sinks to the floor and softly sobs. She can hear the others sleeping. I can't give in to it anymore. I can't start something with any of them. I should keep my distance. She pulls up her knees and cries into her hands silently.

The next day Sarah cheerfully gets down and takes a seat at the breakfast table. She and Emma are going to grab coffee in a café to discuss their job. She smiles at Jin and acts as if nothing happens. RM smiles at seeing the professional Sarah he picked out. She is chatting and laughing with Mary and Emma. Even winking at Doenja, who doesn't trust it. The other members don't think anything of it. After breakfast, Sarah jumps into a spring flower pattern dress and looks like a pure nature fairy in it. Her eyes twinkle and she says goodbye to everyone, and sends Doenja to her work with a smile. Jin looks at how warm Sarah looks and at the same time cold. Even Jhope feels like her smile is warm but her behaviour more cold than the past week. What happened to her?

That evening Sarah acts normal. She is very aware that Jin is constantly looking at her, trying to read her. But she doesn't dwell too long on it. Doenja sees that Jin is staring at her, and pulls Sarah aside to their room. "Okay what happened?" She sits on the bed and pulls her legs into crisscross, cupping her head while leaning with her elbow on her knee. Sarah sits down on the opposing bed. "I made a mistake." Doenja curses. "Sarah, for f*cks sake, what did you do now? Again a trio?" She shakes her head. "It was a duet." "Who?" "Jin." "For all things, good and bad, don't tell me you are actually catching feelings?" Sarah looks away and has tears in her eyes. "No... Yes... I don't know. But whatever it is, it needs to stop here." "Why? If you like someone, just f*cking go for it." "It's not that easy, Doenja." "Yes, it is. You just go for it." "You have no idea what you are talking about!" Sarah gets up and walks out of the room. "I might not know the whole picture, but if you don't tell me, I will never know!" Doenja shouts after Sarah, who is walking away. Conceal, don't feel, don't let it show. Sarah mantras the Frozen's catchphrase over and over in her head while taking a shower. She looks forward to the moment they can go into their own apartment. Away from them all, away from the temptation.

That's when some good news arrived. Sarah gets a task from the office. She has to visit gwangju, in the south. She is happy to be away out of the house, away from the temptation. Big Hit finally decided to let them go to their hometowns, and so gradually the travel staff needs to go and explore. She is excited, she remembers travelling around in Korea before, and how she just loved the far away, outlandish places. Just her, mountains, rivers, forests. Cute little villages, friendly people... She loved everything of it. They offered her a hotel room but Sarah has other plans. And maybe I can meet a guy there. She is packing. Emma is surprised. "Where are you going?" "I am going to Gwangju. Jhope's hometown. They start there first so I need to go and check. But again, shus his the norm." "Are you that happy to leave me?" "You'll be fine!" Sarah closes her bag. "Okay but be careful there." Sarah nods. "I've done this before. I'm good." Emma hugs Sarah, who leaves. She hugs Doenja and Mary too. The BTS members are out for their schedule.