Can I help you?

Chapter 33

The 2seoks are thinking about everything Doenja told about Sarah. Somehow they can't believe it. They have seen her naked, and in skimpy clothes, she has been nothing but confident, daring, bold, confident. Then why is a bathing suit so different? Doenja was right about that bluffing. I bet that one night, outside the club, she had actually no clue what she was doing. Somehow it just ended lucky. But I wonder... did it ever fail? Her bluff? Jhope seems to be able to give that night a place now. The others come out of the water and Emma is hunting blue crabs with RM along the shore line. RM is decided on getting her over that fear. Mary and V are building a sandcastle. V is in charge of decorations. Jimin and Jungkook are still in the water, drowning each other playfully.

Sarah is fast asleep, not noticing the sun has lowered significantly. The others return home around 5-ish to prepare for their BBQ. They can hear some Super Junior songs from the garden and see Sarah laying like that. They all are wowed at her style and looks. Also blinded. Very blinded. She is very pale. Even Suga is having a hard time. RM softly whistles underneath his breath and Emma glares at him. She looks like she came out of a old school porn magazine. I think I saw some of those in my grandpa's shed, from during the war. They are all impressed at someone pulling off a perfect pin up girl. Even her curves on the right and wrong places. Jin is completely taken in. She is beautiful. So perfect. Why would she not strut this like she does with all her other clothes? Sarah moans and stretches. She looks at her phone and stops the music. "Omo is it already this late? They will be home so-" and she gets up but stops mid sentence seeing the audience. The guys whistle between their teeth and wink at her. She turns red and then she grabs the towel and covers herself with it. She dashes up to her room. The moment she passes Jin, he can see a tear flying off her face. "Sarah!" Mary calls out to her but the door to her room slams. "That didn't go well... Wouldn't girls love compliments like these from hot guys?" Doenja glares at the boys. "Not if they used to do it for making fun of her." She walks up to Sarah's room. The guys all feel bad now. Mary sighs. "Don't feel bad. She just needs to conquer this too. Maybe this is a good thing." She looks up to the room and has doubt in her eyes and voice.

Doenja comes out of the room and the others are preparing the feast. Emma and Mary look hopeful at Doenja but she shakes her head. Jin and Jhope feel bad that Sarah is having a bad time at the beach. They seem to remember that she was reluctant about it. They are starting the BBQ and the first things that are done, Jin places on a plate and takes up to his room. Sarah is in the room, wearing her normal clothes again. Jin puts the plate on the table and quietly leaves the room again. Sarah is almost crying at the small kindness Jin is showing to her. And his care and consideration. He was about to walk away but closes the door. He walks back to the bed and sits on it next to her.

"I remember as a kid that some guys in my class thought I was ugly and weird. My mom was a real beauty, you see. They had these high expectations of me. Yet as a kid, I wasn't that world wide handsome yet. It took some time and maturing to get to the looks I have now." Sarah is quiet and pulls up her legs, not looking at him and laying her chin on her knees. Jin sighs and continues. "To be frank, even now I still remember all those things, all those words, all those sticks and stones they threw at me with their words. And even though I learned to love myself, there are still some sides of me that I am reluctant to show to others. I am not always confident but I can't show it." "Is this supposed to make me feel better somehow? Because if so, it is not necessary. I am perfectly fine. Who told you by the way? Emma? Doenja? Mary? Who should I go and kill?" "Doesn't matter. Fact remains you should love yourself. Every part of yourself. Because there is someone who does. So why not do it yourself too?" "Don't you think I know that? It is just easily said than done." "Just come down, we'll pretend we didn't see you. Join the others. We all miss you." He softly places his hand on her arm. There is so much of me I can see in her. Jin thinks. He squeezes her arm gently, as in to comfort her. She looks at Jin. Just like I thought. We are so much alike. She sighs. "Give me a few minutes. And take the plate down." Jin smiles triumphantly. "Understood." He salutes and takes the plate back down. The party is in full swing and the atmosphere is light.

Doenja is seen clinking glasses with Yoongi. Emma is making packages of meat for feeding RM because he was her hero today. Jimin, JK and Mary are singing some songs. V is laughing and staring at Mary. Jin places the plate back on the table and leaves a spot open. Jhope looks at Jin and he nods. A few minutes later, Sarah joins them and she is laughing again. She and Jin exchange glances and she smiles with her eyes at him.

They are around a campfire at the beach. The waves are breaking on the rocks in the distance and the stars are bright at the sky. The warm breeze blows over the beach and the flame of the fire flickers slightly. They all have a can of beer in their hands, and are enjoying it. "NO WAY!" "Yes way! We can drink beer in Belgium since our 16!" JK claps his hands. "That is crazy! I mean, we can't even touch it before we are 20!" They are all impressed. Doenja raises her beer and cheers at it. "Sarah been drinking a heavy beer since she was 8 years old even." They all look at Sarah, who smiles. "And it is today still my favorite beer. It's about 8%." They all look in shock, except for the Belgians. This time Suga raises his beer to Sarah. "No way!!!" Sarah grins at their amazement. She takes out her phone and shows a picture of her as a baby, drinking the beer, or rather it being fed to her by her father. They all cheer and go nuts seeing that picture. Sarah is laughing at their innocence and having an awesome night. The subjects vary from diverse subjects. The later it gets, the more heated things get. RM asks about the fangirl life. They tell them all about it. "We even discuss you guys about your assumed size and if you are a virgin or not." Mary blurts out. The boys are at the same time horrified and intrigued. "So, what is your conclusions?" V asks. The girls are blushing and quiet. The boys are laughing hard at this. Sarah speaks up. "If we tell you, will you tell us the truth?" The girls applaud at Sarah's witty defense. Knowing they probably won't go into her offer, they won't need to tell them their conclusions too. "Deal." Jin says, curious about it. The others nod. Sarah's plan backfired and she hesitates. The other girls just raise their hands as in 'we give up, let's just tell them and get the truth'.

"Hmmm lets see. Let's start with the youngest: Virgin and big." JK turns shy and nods. Sarah and the girls high five. Sarah continues. "V, big and virgin." V's face looks amused at the girls and then sees the expectation on Mary's face. He throws his hands up and nods. The girls high five again and are cooing. Jimin starts to shift on his chair, excited. "Jimin, virgin and smaller." He pouts. "Ya! I am big." The other guys are shushing him and boo-ing. "We promised the truth, Jiminah, just sit down and acknowledge it." He sits down and looks angry and away while nodding. Again a cheer from the girls camp. "Damn, you guys are so good... We should be aware of the intellect of fangirls." Namjoon jokingly says, swallowing, knowing very well it's his turn. "RM, Not virgin and big." His mouth falls open They knew I was not a virgin? Amazing! He nods. And the girls cheer again at their win. Jin pokes RM with his elbow and is cheering too. "Aaaaah RM shiiiiii" He nags. Sarah looks at Jhope, and blushes. The other girls cheer her on. "Jhope, big and former virgin..." Sarah says, as if she knew. Jhope claps his hands. "I was a virgin indeed. Until I met this amazing woman who is sitting right he-" "Suga! Not virgin and smaller." She interrupted Jhope and looks at Doenja. She shakes her head. Suga blushes and takes a sip from his drink. "I don't think I am smaller... more to the normal side." He looks at Doenja, who smirks. "Jin, definitely not virgin. Maybe not have been one since senior year, or maybe college. Big." She grins. Jin acknowledges it and stands up, holding his hands as if he want to say to the audience 'I know, I know'. "How did you even get the timing right?" Sarah shrugs. "Guess a premonition." She laughs with the other girls. "So if we were right every time. That means we have-" Sarah is counting "4 virgins here." The guys are counting but are confused. Emma stiffens. TMI Sarah, TMI please. The guys seem to have figured something out and are looking at the girls. Suga, Jin and Jhope are confident about Sarah and Doenja not being virgins anymore. However Mary and Emma are the ones they doubt. Both girls seem to be unlikely to have done it. So all of them are shouting out stuff. "Not Sarah and Doenja! I'm sure." "It's Emma" "No it's Mary!" They are arguing. RM tries to read their faces. Emma is very quiet and is just smiling at everyone, together with Mary. But somehow her smile feels a bit uncomfortable. Is it Emma? It could be... she is the youngest. I should be extra careful with her then. He coughs. They change the subject to their wishes. And the conversation is getting picked up again.