Can I help you?

Chapter 46

She goes to the table and grabs a bottle, then walks on to the beach. She is embarrassed at her panic reaction. She is sad too, she didn't mean to hurt Jhope like that. She is also afraid of the repercussions of explaining why she slapped a member of BTS. More of all she is afraid of facing Jhope ever again. She drinks but it doesn't still her fears. This is for the best. He'll hate me and won't love me anymore. Somehow her heart hurts more at that thought. She has such mixed feelings about it all. Suga follows her. He is also holding a bottle of liquor. Sarah takes a seat in a dunhill. She throws the bottle all the way up and gulps it down. Suga just throws himself next to her and sips also from his bottle. "So you hit Jhope across the face. He probably deserved it." He leans on his knees, just holding the bottle relaxed and looks in the distance. "No, he didn't. It is my fault." "Doenja told me that you are strict against dating in our group. Is there a specific reason for it?" Sarah doesn't look at Suga. She just takes the bottle and gulps another one. "Even though I think drinking can relax someone, I wouldn't recommend it to use alcohol to be abused like this to forget. So easy there." He lowers Sarah's bottle. Sarah is panting from drinking.

"I noticed that Jin hyung and Hobi have taken an interest in you. I would even say a liking. Maybe you gave them the wrong idea, by stringing them along." Sarah is hiccuping and trying to choke back the tears. He notices and lifts the bottle for her again. She sips it. "Did I truly string them along?" Suga looks at his own bottle. "I don't think Jin and Hobi are the ones to be strung along. They are not sheep, they are lions. They are not herd like, more hunting like. So no. I don't think so. But you might think so. And I just want to tell you that." He sips his bottle. "I love Doenja. But she is sparing your feelings so she keeps her distance. Next to the occasional slip up, when passion is the highest, she doesn't overstep the staff-member boundary. But you probably noticed." Sarah nods and sips from her bottle. "And I follow Doenja in respecting your leadership. So if you say so, you'll probably have your reasons. But don't keep Doenja in the dark too long. If there is one thing I learned, it is to be open to the ones you trust. If you keep it up too long, things will grow sour and the ones you trust will lose that trust. And with that, tell the truth to Jin and Hobi. They are so in love with you. I can't blame them. You are confident, daredevil, charming, brilliant in all the meanings of the word. You surprise us daily, and are a leader. You are a new breeze in our group, just like the other girls. Who knows, overtime their feelings might change, once the new about you is gone. People always are attracted to new. The ones who are still standing after all that time, are the ones that really love you." He nods at his own words. "I should make a song about this." He takes his phone and repeats his words in a recording.

Sarah laughs. "Thanks. You know, you are my bias too." Suga smiles his pearly smile and flushes lightly. "Thanks. To imagine I have such an amazing fan as you..." Sarah poke-pushes him. Both are grinning. "Do you think Hoseok will be angry at me?" Suga shakes his head. "I think he will mostly be worried about something he did or say to you. And feel guilty." Sarah nods. That does seem likely. Suga gets up. "And the others. What will they say? What do I say?" He pulls Sarah up with him. "If you don't know what to say, and don't want to lie, just say nothing at all." "I'm scared to go back. I am not professional." Suga pulls her at her hand. "That's okay, tonight isn't about being professional, tonight is about enjoying our fleeting youth." "Even tho I'm already 31?" "Even then. You are surrounded by young people, so your heart is still in its prime and youth." The house comes closer, Sarah's heart drops the closer they get. Suga feels her pulse become faster through holding her hand. "Just take it easy, all will be fine, trust me. Trust us." They enter and the others look at both coming in with a bottle of alcohol in their hand. Jhope is sitting at a table, and when he sees Sarah he jumps up. He walks to her and apologises. "I should not have done that. I'm sorry." He holds his hands together. Doenja looks at Suga, and Suga just nods. Doenja seems relieved.

JK and Jimin are on the beach. They are in charge of the fireworks. When the first arrow hits the dark sky, they all take a seat to enjoy the show. RM and Emma are sitting with their legs in the water of the pool. Suga and Doenja are laying down on the sunbath chairs next to the pool. Mary and V are excitedly clapping their hands, while sitting on the low wall at the end of the garden of the house, looking out over the beach. Sarah, Jin and Jhope are on the balcony. Sarah is enjoying fireworks. "I have always loved fireworks so much!" She is smiling non stop. Jin is looking at the fireworks too, but Jhope is looking at the smile on Sarah's face. I wish I could see this smile every day and night. I want to make you happy. Not hurt you.