The One That Got Away (GIRLXGIRL)

Chapter Thirty

Sam's POV

Was the universe playing tricks on me? Had the stars re-wrote themselves and turned me into a confused love struck puppet? Or was this a chance for me to re-write the stars and transform what was to what would be according to my own terms? I was lying still, afraid to move, afraid that I might wake her up and suddenly fate would change. Living with her made everyday a gamble, what if one day she woke up saying she was inlove with Jaycey? I hadn't forgotten that she got in that car accident chasing after her and leaving me behind with a broken heart.

It had been approximately three weeks since she left the hospital and it had been the best few weeks of my life. It's like we'd been given a chance to begin again. Three days after she was discharged from the hospital we went out on a date. It was like complete de ja vu, a photocopy of how everything felt on our first date four and a half years ago. Now after three weeks of getting comfortable with having her around, I felt my nerves pile up. I didn't want to get used to having her around but that was highly impossible because I was wholeheartedly inlove with her. I was inlove with Isabelle Anderson and I was definitely going to take advantage of the chance fate had given us. Take a leap of faith and fall again, though there was no hope that I would be caught again.

"You look broken."

"How broken?" I replied, gazing at the beautiful woman in front of my eyes. I hadn't noticed she'd woken up.

She moved closer to me, causing our bodies to be at great proximity. My breath caught up in my throat due to the contact, causing the urge to control myself to slip away slowly with every second.

"Very broken, you seem torn. Am I the cause?" her eyes searched mine. I managed to smile but my words got tangled in my mouth making it hard for me to come up with a reply. One of her hands gracefully landed on my cheek, she caressed it softly and her thumb made slow movements that warmed my heart.

"I don't know what I did to you, by the way you're broken I sometimes get afraid to ask. Although I want to get back to normal, I'm scared. I'm scared because I can tell from your pain that I was a terrible person, that I hurt you so bad and that I did the worst things to your heart. I'm afraid to lose you, I can't believe that I chased you away. How could I do that? How could I tear you apart? How could I make you cry? I wish I could know what happened, I wish you could tell me, I wish we could stay like this forever. I'm sorry Samantha, I apologise for all that I've done to you."

She used her thumb to wipe away stray tears that had escaped from my eyes. I contemplated on whether to tell her everything.

"I cheated on you," I broke the silence with my broken voice. Confusion and shock were evident in her eyes. I took a very deep sigh then began to tell her how it all happened, in hopes that maybe she would remember too.

A very loud irritating knock made me jump out of my skin. I lowered the TV volume, thinking maybe the person would go away but the knocking continued, louder than before.

"Belle open the damn door," the voice belonged to a woman and that raised the level of my curiosity from a zero to a hundred. Belle wasn't around, and the woman sounded a little drunk but what harm could a woman do to another woman, none right?

I moved from the couch and made my way to the door, opening it to reveal a gorgeous looking woman. I watched her eyes take me in, she looked me up and down slowly before seductively biting her lower lip. I looked at myself then suddenly became self conscious because I had forgotten that I was only in an oversized sweater and my undies.

"Can I come in," her voice was low but somehow it sounded raspy and sexy.

"Y,yeah I guess," I stammered, opening the door wider and letting her in. As soon as I closed it, I turned to be greeted by soft lips landing on mine. Too shocked to kiss back, I just stood frozen on the spot where I was and couldn't even master up the courage to push the stranger away. She nibbled on my lower lip before biting it causing me to involuntarily open my mouth and she dug her tongue deep in my mouth. Somehow after a few seconds, I found myself kissing her back. I felt her lips curve into a smile as she placed both her hands on my lower back then pulled me closer to her. Our tongues danced together. Her hands moved underneath my sweater and that's when it hit me, I used the little strength I had to push her.

"S,stop," I whispered face palming myself, then removing my hands from my face to look at her, "This is wrong... I don't even know who you are gosh I'm an idiot."

She moved closer to me again then pulled me into her arms, my idiotic self failing to push her off. Her lips landed on my cheek and she kissed me before saying, "But it felt right didn't it. Look at the effects, I was totally drunk but I'm sober now."

"We slept together and you found out later that day," I whispered bitterly, not even meeting Belle's eyes because of the shame filled in mine.

"How did I find out?" she asked, calm as the sea.

"You found us, still having sex on the couch and you had a fight with Lucy," I explained.

"Lucy, my cousin Lucy?"

"Yes, I cheated on you with her."

She kept quiet for a while, closed her eyes then asked again, "What did I do about it?"

"You went and slept around. But," I breathed out heavily, "Before I slept with Lucy, you had cheated on me first. We went to visit my dad and we all went out, him, my stepmother and you. You cheated on me with someone, you never told me who it was."

"I'm a monster."

"When you found me with Lucy, you were hurt and I guess you sleeping around was some sort of revenge to hurt me back. But somewhere along the road we started fighting, and the more we fought, the more you slept around; and the more you slept around, the more I slept with Lucy."

"That's messed up," she said, moving her hand from my cheeks and placing it on my waist, "But we did make up right?"

"Yes we did, but then Jaycey came along and you changed. From the first time you saw her you became someone else then I guess the both of you started seeing each other and sleeping together behind my back. You played both me and her like a heartless champ and it took me a long while to put two and two together and figure out that it was her all along. We found out that Jaycey is my sister, and that you had a thing with my stepmother and then she heard you saying you don't give a fuck about her then she left and you ran after her; leaving me behind."

"That was when the accident happened?"

"Yes."

"So in short, I really am the devil in angel skin," her voice sounded torn.

"You're not a monster Belle, things happen in life and all of that happened but you're still alive and I'm grateful for that."

"You're still in love with me."

"I'll always be inlove with you Isabelle Anderson."

"Why do you make me feel like I'm somebody special when all I've done is hurt you?"

"That's because you are someone special to me, I love you so much and I don't want to lose you, I'm afraid that I will."

We both stared at each other. Seconds passed without any words shared between us, after a minute or so I felt the pull that had been forcing me to give in to my desires pull me harder. As I was still thinking whether or not I should make the first move, Belle beat me to it. She placed her lips gently on mine and caused me to melt under her touch. Fireworks exploded in my heart, butterflies erupted in my stomach and my body heated up.

After so much time of not feeling her lips on mine, I finally was granted my wish. Her kiss was passionate and slow, it was fuelled with love and it reminded me of how much I wanted her, how much I needed her. I moaned in her mouth, and she let out a sexy groan that vibrated from her throat, landing to my ears. Her hands pulled me closer and closer until I was ontop of her. We kissed, I kissed Isabelle Anderson and she kissed me back like I was everything she needed in this world.