Never let U Go (One Direction Fan Fic)

Three Little Words *Court*

Three Little Words *Court*

"I don't want you to go..." I mumbled to Harry as I ran my fingers through his hair. The two of us were laying on my bed. My back was against the pillows and he was laying down with his head rested on top of my lap.

"I don't want to go either. I could fall asleep like this." Harry responded, sighing contentedly. I closed my eyes, starting to ydrift off to sleep. My fingers continued to run through his hair.

"Time to leave Harry." Dad stated, standing in the doorway of my room. Both Harry and I let out incoherent protests. We were so close to falling asleep. "Come on you two. You can see each other tomorrow." Dad assured us. That wasn't even the problem. Neither of us felt like moving.

"Aw, they look really cute like that." Ava stated from the doorway, most likely behind dad. My eyes were still shut.

"Make sure he leaves." Dad told my sister and then walked away. Ava walked over and started gently nudging my shoulder.

"Wake up. Harry has to leave." She said quietly. I regrettably opened my eyes and sighed. Damn, what did these people have against me and sleep?

"Haz, you gotta get up. It's time to leave.' I shook Harry's shoulder carefully. He groaned but opened his eyes.

"I want to go to sleep." He responded as he started to sit up but almost fell backward again. I placed my hands on his back, making sure he didn't fall back on to the bed.

"I know, but you got to leave. Dad's orders." I replied. He grumbled a few incoherent words as he stood up. He turned around to look at me as I scooted over to the edge of the bed.

"Good night love." Harry whispered, cupping my cheek before gently pressing his lips against mine. I hummed in agreement and he pulled back. "I'll see you tomorrow." He gave me another quick kiss before turning to leave.

The words I wanted to say got caught in my throat. I couldn't say them. Niall and Ava exchanged "I Love You's" after only four days. Four days! But I couldn't do that with Harry.

As guarded as my sister was, she was able to say it. But I couldn't. It's not that I didn't love Harry. After spending an hour with him anyone would fall madly in love with him. But I didn't know if he felt the same way. I was never one to really put my feelings out there.

Harry left and I bit my lip, still battling with my thoughts. Did I love him? With out a doubt. But was I ready to hand someone my heart and be sure they wouldn't break it? No, not really. I was a skeptic to a lot of things. Me ever finding true love was one of them.

"You look like you're thinking too much." Ava stated, sitting down on the bed next to me as I worked my way back to sitting by the pillows.

"I can't say it sis." I stated quietly. My heart was telling me to go for it. My brain was telling my heart to shut up and stop trying to get hurt.

"Can't say what Court?" Ava questioned. I looked at her and noticed she was wearing Niall's sweatshirt. I was going to ask if he has forgotten it here and she conveniently 'forgot' to tell him but I was too caught up in my battle with my thoughts and feelings.

"I can't say 'I love you'." I said sadly. My sister nodded. "I don't know why. I just can't say it. I don't think I'll ever be able to. I know in my heart that it's true. But then my head starts saying 'well the last time you said that was to Toby and he died in a car crash a week later'. The first time I said it our house dog ran away. Face it, whoever I love just leaves me." I replied. Oh! So that was my problem? Thank you incomprehensible babbling!

"Court maybe you just need time. I mean, Harry hasn't said it either right?" Ava inquired. I shook my head. He hadn't said it to me either. "Every couple moves at their own pace. When the time is right to say 'I Love You' you'll know."