Eternal Poetry (Rap)

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Pouring all my emotions, out on a blank sheet of paper

I don't know what use it is but it is better 

Than to stopper all of them in, keeping them all bottled in

Until the night brings them out and makes my mind full of sin

Making me feel worthless and crippled, hopeless and crumpled

Like some sort of trash that would be better off in the bin

Throw it all in, it would be everyone's win

But I don't care, I'll still survive

As long as I've got poetry I know I'll still thrive

As long as I know how to live I know I'll stay alive

I've got all my life to live, I've got all my gifts to give

To the world, and I will survive

There are times I feel so weak, I feel so vulnerable

I don't know where I lost my old self with the inevitable passage of time

If only I could be more confident

If only I could be more self-reliant

If only I didn't get absorbed, by the worlds I wrote about

And compare them with the flawed world I'm out in

Guess its just the way it is

Guess I can't change what it is

But I wish I could change myself

To feel happy not sad when not doing this

Cause damn this poems, damn this rapping thing

It has only brought me harm, what good did it ever bring

And there are times I feel so hopeless, I feel so insecure

If only I had someone who to listen to all I tell and make me feel secure

But I know it is a bit too much, not for a person but even a God

Hell even I wanted to run away from my own thoughts

But I gotta live it out, I gotta make it out

If I can't see the light then I'll learn to live in the darkness

There are people who are positive, who have a brighter perspective

But that's not for me, that's not for me

A child of the darkness that's all I'll ever be

I just hope I can survive without light, I just hope I can see

The end of it, without regretting it, and start wanting to really be

Alive, once again.