DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter seven

april 6th, 2013

dear future husband,

how do things fall apart so quickly? i thought true love was never-ending.

i saw true love when i looked at my parents. when my mom would cook, my dad would hug her from behind. when she fell asleep on the couch, he covered her with a blanket. they used to slow dance in the living room together.

what changed? if true love never ends, why are my parents getting a divorce?

if two people as in love as my parents are willing to end their marriage, what will happen to mine in the future?

i'm scared.

reese and ryan are too young to understand what's happening. my parents say nothing will change, but how can nothing change when my dad is moving into an apartment across town?

i need both of my parents with me, especially now. high school is stressful and the decisions that come with it are even harder.

my parents told us the bad news on friday night, and now it's sunday night and i haven't gotten out of bed all weekend.

the only reason i just got up was to walk to my desk to write to you. i wish you were here with me.

i found a verse that describes my mood right about now, from the book of psalms.

❝tears are prayers too. they travel to God when we can't speak.❞ ~psalm 56:8

am i being too sensitive? i think it's okay for me to be this sad, right? jack, daniel and corbyn say it is.

i turn 15 in a month, and i don't think i've ever been this sad. my heart hurts, and i feel empty inside?

i don't like feeling like this; i wish i could be happy.

i hope you're happy, soulmate. that would make one of us.

signed,

zachary dean herron xx