DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter thirty-six

june 7th, 2021

dear jonah marais,

i'm literally shaking right now, the writing on this letter is going to be so messy and i'm sorry:(

i've never been more scared for anything a day in my life. i could barely eat breakfast, and the little food i actually did eat is making me super nauseous.

but yay we're literally getting married in, like, two hours oh my god.

i'm terrified mostly because we're actually about to tie the knot, but also because i'm giving you all the letters today, before we walk down the aisle.

today has been so chaotic, between sleeping over in hotels, getting everyone up, fed and ready, and dealing with my nerves and panic sessions. hopefully your morning is going a lot smoother than mine is.

so now, after many long hours, i'm finally in my suit with my hair and makeup all done. writing to you for the last time.

"the last time," sounds like i'm dying. in reality, we're starting an amazing life together. i can't wait:))

i'm not going to lie, this letter is actually making me very emotional. something i've worked so hard on for 8 years is finally going to pay off. i can't wait to see your face when you open this book:)

i might actually cry when you read them, these stupid little letters mean the absolute world to me, and this book is one of my most prized possessions.

now that all the craziness from this morning is over and people have finally left me alone, it's giving me so much more time to think and reflect.

think about how special and crazy our love story is. my first boyfriend ended up being my soulmate, my first love and now my husband. our story is truly one of a kind, and i wouldn't trade it for anything.

today, all i'm asking God for is a blessing. all i want is for Him to watch over us, our marriage and our life together, and our future. today's bible quote (wowie throwback) is:

❝love is patient, love is kind. it always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. love never fails.❞ ~1 corinthians 13: 4, 7-8

i feel like this quote is so representative of what we as lovers are. our love has never failed us, and for that i'm eternally grateful.

i honestly just can't wait to be married to you; to look at you and be able to say "yeah, i claimed him. he's mine forever."

i'm excited for everything that's to come after this wedding, especially our honeymoon. i've never been to europe, and now we get to travel to so many different countries and experience all the culture.

i'm only a little bit scared.

that's just because we all know what happens on the wedding night. we go back to the hotel for one night before leaving in the morning.

i'm just scared it will hurt, or that i'm not good enough for you. i know i have nothing to be worried about, but i can't help being a little anxious.

mom just told me it's almost time to go, she thinks i'm writing vows. okay, time to come see you.

for the last time,

signed,

zachary dean herron xx

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄!

IM LITERALLY WRITING THE NEXT CHAPTER ALREADY IM SO E X C I T E D ✨

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