DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter nine

september 13th, 2014

dear future husband,

i just started 11th grade and i'm already dying.

classes are harder than last year, preparing us for college or university. so i'm literally drowning in homework and it's barely even the second week of school.

and, to top it all off, my best friends are ignoring me.

okay, not ignoring me, but they never hang out with me anymore.

sure, they talk to me at school, but their girlfriends are always there.

after school we never hang out, because they're with their girlfriends. which i understand.

if you were here, i would spend all my time with you too.

but, friendship can't thrive if there's nothing to nurture it with, and right now my friends aren't doing anything.

as much as i hate to say it, i think i'm growing apart from them.

why does everything in my life fall apart? will anyone ever stay? i don't know the answers to those questions.

what i do know, is that my friendship with the boys is falling apart, and i don't know how to stop it.

i've been listening to a lot of sad music recently, because that's just my mood.

i wish i could be happy.

my life is so shit without you, i wish you would show up already. but God will give you to me at the right time so i'll wait.

this letter is short and i'm sorry but i'm not motivated to write to you right now. it sounds bad but i'm not motivated to do anything...i need to find a new hobby.

i hope you're life is going better than mine is right now:/

i love you, soulmate.

signed,

zachary dean herron xx