DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter thirty-one

may 28th, 2019

dear jonah marais,

hi. i haven't written in a long while actually. but so much has happened in the past like 8 months.

for starters, you finished university. now you've graduated, and you start your job soon.

your graduation was so cute, all your family flew out to watch you, and after they all came to our apartment for a little party.

it was nice to see your family again, i missed them almost as much as i missed own. which was a lot.

we flew back on the same flight with your family, so we could go home and celebrate my birthday. which was yesterday.

the big 21. i feel really old now, but i feel better knowing you're even older:)

i was so excited to see my friends again, especially jack. i missed them all dearly, and they all changed so much.

fairity grew up so fast, she was now old enough to go to daycare so her parents could get their post-secondary education, which olivia was very excited about.

being home felt weird. not a bad weird, but not an entirely good weird either. it just felt odd. almost as if it wasn't really home anymore. it felt like a place i was visiting rather than the place i called home.

i found it odd, how i had grown up in that house and called it my home for so long. i had so much love and many good memories there, despite my parents divorce and my father's decision to move out.

i didn't know why it didn't feel like my home anymore. it didn't really hit me until two days ago when i climbed into my childhood bed and you weren't there.

that's when i realized that home wasn't a place for me, it was a person.

my home was wherever you were.

and although it was late and i knew you would be asleep, i texted you to tell you that i love you anyways.

i never realized how much i needed you to fall asleep until you weren't there the other night.

i'm just glad you'll be here tonight, so i can finally feel at peace again.

i forgot how slow life here was. it was different than boston, there was no urgency or demand to get anywhere quickly like there was in the city.

in a way, i missed the hustle and bustle and the cars honking all night in front of our apartment.

but i also loved the leisurely attitude that my hometown held.

i don't know where this entry is going, it's been too long since i last wrote. my head is a mess, and writing is my therapy.

anyways, you're supposed to be here soon, and i need to hide the letters before you arrive.

i can't wait to see you<3

i love you:))

signed,

zachary dean herron xx

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄!
i feel like this book is just going downhill:')

but i'm wrapping it up soon!!

also, i keep forgetting to say that i have a oneshot book out now💀 i'll probably be posting one tomorrow, so yeah:)

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