DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter twenty

march 30th, 2017

dear future husband,

happy spring break:D

i'm in cancun with the group right now (including fairity). and we've had some...adventures.

we would have stayed in america for the break, but to be honest, we wanted to get away. and us being legal in mexico is just a bonus.

having fairity with us all the time is sometimes challenging, because someone has to be watching her all the time. but bringing her was so worth it, because it was her first plane ride, and she's a little bundle of joy all the time.

i'm happy to finally have a break from school with no worries about homework. i'm almost completely done my first year of university, which is actually so insane to me. i feel like i'm growing up too fast, and i want to be a kid again.

me being almost nineteen doesn't help my case at all. being a kid, i had so much love and attention from everyone, but as i grew up, the attention i got lessened. not having a partner to share all my milestones with has put a kind of strain on me that i can't really explain.

but that's not the vibe for this letter. the vibe is happy ☻

right now we're all just relaxing in our hotel rooms while fairity takes a nap, and then we're going to go to the beach for a while, before daniel comes back so the rest of us can go out. he and liv have been so responsible during this trip and it makes me admire them so much.

i feel like these letters are getting less and less frequent, but honestly i don't have much motivation to write, or think about love right now.

everyone has lived a normal life, with normal girlfriends their whole life. why do i have to be different? God just didn't want to make my life simple. i know i'll be happy sometime soon. but i'm tired of waiting.

where are you?

signed,

zachary dean herron xx

p.s. i realized the letter got sad again at the end, but i can't help it:')