DEAR FUTURE HUSBAND [ ZONAH ]

letter twenty-seven

may 15th, 2018

dear jonah marais,

this week is finals. you know how much pressure i put on my self to excel in school, so when i asked you not to distract me, you complied.

for the past week, i had been studying almost nonstop. i only stopped to eat and go to the bathroom, and sleep at night.

i'm sorry i haven't returned your calls or texts.

although i did exams last year, i did extremely well in them.

this made me pressure myself to get those same results, or even better ones, this year.

i couldn't stand the thought of going downhill. if i were to get lower marks than my first set of exams, i would be so disappointed in myself.

so, i've distanced myself from all forms of human contact in order to study in complete peace. my eyes hurt and my brain feels like mush, but i have to memorize all these formulas.

all of a sudden YOU (yes, you) burst into the room with a determined look on your face. i was about to tell you off for disrupting me, and force you to leave, but you brought up a tempting offer.

i would stay at your apartment for the night, just to take a little break and relax

i wanted to say no, and tell you that i had to stay here, but i couldn't resist your puppy dog eyes.

when i finally gave in, you smiled a smile that made me giddy, and told me to shower and pack a bag because i smelled. i scowled at you before obeying and leaving the room to freshen up.

when i was ready, you took my hand and we walked the short few blocks to get to your place.

being outside felt nice, i didn't realize how much i missed my hand in yours.

when we got back to your apartment, you made me change into one of your big t-shirts while i kept only my boxers on underneath. you also changed into something comfortable, and we decided to watch netflix and order chinese takeout for dinner.

your arm didn't leave my waist all night. i felt so small and protected.

we watched our movies and laughed, enjoying just being with each other. i forgot about my stresses that were eating me up only hours earlier.

sometime after dinner, i fell asleep and you carried me to bed.

this morning i woke up on top of you, with my cheek pressed against your chest. your soft breathe tickled my scalp. i laud still for a few minutes, soaking up the serenity of the moment. i knew soon i would have to go back to studying, but at that moment i didn't care.

all that mattered was us, and our love.

i found myself wanting to stay right there forever.

i love you to infinity and beyond.

signed,

zachary dean herron xx

𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐑'𝐒 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄!

pls i made myself soft with this one>:)

also i suddenly have so many ideas for this book like ??

who is she ? idk

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