BTS HYYH Notes (Book 1, 2, BUS Game) // COMPLETE [Part 2]

2022, Jul 26 - Jungkook (Hospital Flower)

[Places: Hospital, road, bus station]

In the hospital flower bed, I secretly snapped a flower. But I continuously on the verge of laughter, so I dropped my head.

The midsummer sunlight was blinding. I knocked on the room of the hospital door but there was no response. I knocked once more and then opened the door. Inside the room, it was for some reason, chilly. And there was nobody there. There was only a quiet darkness that draped over the room. I left the hospital room.

(A/N: Throwback)

In my boredom and frustration, I pushed the wheelchair, cutting through the corridors speedily when I met her. Because I came so suddenly, I barely stopped by a girl who tied her hair in one.

As we left the hospital, I saw a bench. I remembered that at one point, we had sat down and listened to music while I'm drawing. And up there on that rooftop, we had shared strawberry milk, too.

(A/N: End of throwback)

While in the hands, there had always been wildflowers, now there was nobody to give it to.

When I turned around, the hospital was pretty far from me. The bench that I left the floor, the window I looked at the river together with her was now out of sight. Looking back, she gave the breathing room in the suffocating hospital. Late evening, if I talked with her on the hospital bench, the sun set down.

What happened in our hang out place? When we went to the beach for a trip I told her about, when we walked all the way to the train station, while she talked about every corner places of the hospital. Which window shows river, which stair leads to the rooftop secretly. She knew everything about the hospital.

Her room was empty. Whether she got discharged, or moved to another hospital. I asked the nurses but I got no information. On some reason, my heart felt sad.

I turned around and started walking again. Far away, I was able to see a school. I realized that most of the stories that I told to that girl were all about what I did with hyung, what I told her all started with 'hyung'. For me who was always alone, hyungdeul were my friends, family, and my teachers. My story was all in hyung's story and I only existed within the relationship with hyungdeul.

But for some reason, I kept having this thought. That one day, they won't be by my side anymore. There might be, when I visited and no one is there and no one would tell me the reason. No, something worse might happen.

I remembered that night. The night when a big moon was up, flipped world. The headlight light that came in my eyes from the flipped sight. The silhouette of the car that passed my me, tail-lamp's red light, engine sound that sounded somehow familiar. I didn't want to make a false accusation. But I kept remembering that moment.

(A/N: Moments after)

I laid on the asphalt road like that day. Tilted my head and looked up in the sky. The day was getting darker but the moon was not visible. It was pretty empty road but if the car was coming and couldn't see me there, it could be another accident.

When I got back to my senses, I was at a bus station. I looked back to see how much I walked but the hospital was out of sight. I waited for the bus and got on. It was the bus that headed to that place. It wasn't planned but perhaps in my heart, I already knew. I had to go back there. I had to confirm the meaning of what happened there. I thought while looking at the summer weather through the window.

Can I trust them?

While thinking, I asked myself again. If I couldn't trust them, who do I trust?