A Comeback when the First Tear Dropped (COMPLETED)

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I never thought that life will be this hard and complicated. I kept on telling myself that I should only focus on positive things but how can I possibly do that if sa sarili ko pa lang negative na ako?

I know I shouldn't be down if I know that I failed instead, I should apply that as my motivation to continue my day and hope that it will turn out really amazing.

My life's really became a mess after Alex died and I know that I shouldn't be letting myself drown. I just kept on blaming myself dahil sa nangyari kay Alex at paano ako makaka move on knowing na hindi ko naman alam kung ano iyong huling inisip at naramdaman ni Alex para sa akin bago siya mawala.

His letter were the last message I've received from him and I will forever keep it with mine. I don't want to forget whole him. Gusto ko kahit kaunti may parte pa rin siya sa akin dahil alam ko kung gaano niya kagusto na maging parte siya ng buhay ko.

I went to my unit at dumiretso sa kama para magpahinga. I just want to forget all the negativity I am feeling right now by sleeping para kahit sandali man lang, mawala iyong mga iniisip at lungkot ko. I've been searching for answers if where I can possibly find the happiness that I need and if where I can actually start the healing process kasi pakiramdam ko as months passed by mas lalo akong nababaon sa lungkot though alam ko naman na kasalanan ko kung bakit nangyayari sa akin 'to.

I was about to go to sleep when I've heard my laptop rang and I knew that it signaled for notification kaya mabilis akong umupo sa kama ko at kinuha iyong laptop ko.

I opened it and it was from my email so I quickly went to it to check kung sino ang nagpadala ng email. Usually kasi si Papa ang palaging nag e-email sa akin lalo na kung tungkol sa mga companies na nagha-hiring.

I scanned my recent emails and I didn't see any messages from my Dad at mayroong isang email na sa tingin ko ay galing sa isang company. I clicked it at laking gulat ko nang makita ko na tanggap na ako sa kompanya nila samantalang hindi ko naman maalala na nag apply ako sa ganitong kompanya.

I thought it was sa scam but I tried checking their website and it is freaking legit! I didn't know how did this happen but I do really hope that this is my start to begin the next chapter of my life.

I don't want to be drown from sadness anymore except from missing my Alex. I want to move on pero ayoko naman siyang i-let go so parang niloloko ko lang ang sarili ko.

I hope someday I can officially move on.

I hope someday I can officially let him go.

I hope someday I can finally say I am healed.

Morning came, I went back to my email at binasa ko ulit iyong message nila sa akin. "Salonga Group of Companies?" I whispered to my self as I was reading the letter they've sent me.

"Paano nila ako nahanap?" I asked to myself and then continued reading the letter.

But instead of adding questions to myself, I stood up and get dressed at nagsimulang hanapin kung nasaan iyong kompanya na iyon. I just followed the gps of my phone and luckily, I found it.

I didn't know that this was also around Makati. Good thing, malapit lang sa tinutuluyan kong condo. I looked at the building from bottom to top and I can't really imagine that this company will surprisingly sent me the application for their new employees.

I've encountered a lot of companies before and I can honestly say that not all companies is basing on your background. Some of them don't even care if you're a graduate of well known schools basta  kapag hindi maganda iyong ipinakita mo or hindi nila nakita iyong gusto nilang makita, they'll just probably reject you.