Twisted~(Kaneki Ken x Male Reader)

Gaining Courage: Part 1

Ken's POV

'Today is the day! Today is the day!' I kept thinking to myself as i made my way to the café for work and to ask (Y/N) out on a special night. After i made it to the café, i stood infront of it's door below the sign, i took a deep breath and kept thinkin to myself 'You can do this Ken! You'll walk in, walk up to him, and ask him out on a date to prove that you are a worthy boyfriend for him!' I stood infront of the door of the café preparing myself for god knows how long while the few passer-by looks at me oddly. I took a deep breath and filled my lungs wit as much air as it can contain, puffed my chest, opened the door, and walked over there with determination to ask (Y/N) out on a date and my head held high!!

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Only for all of it to be completely drained out of my body the second i saw (Y/N)'s cute little face smile at me. All of that determination melted into my shy-ness and the air taht i stored imediately escaped. I looked like a deflated balloon.

'Damn it! I practiced for this!'

"Good morning Kaneki!" (Y/N) shouted from all the way across the café with his usual everyday happy-go-lucky personality.

My heart ponded against me whenever i see him and i want so badly to ask him out but im too afraid. Afraid that he won't like me back, or if he doesn't see me that way. Hell, i don't even know if he's single, he could already have a boyfriend for all i know!

I sighed in defeat and simply replied with a 'good morning' back to him as i slumped down on the chair infront of him. How am i going to date him if im like this? Touka really messed me up on the relationship front. Im just so scared something like that might happen again.

"Kaneki? Are you okay?" (Y/N) seem to have realized the state i was in. He was hunched over, his body half way across the table and him looking at me with worry in his eyes.

He was so close. I felt something on my hand and i saw that he layed his hand on top of mine to try and soothe me.

"Im fine (Y/N), don't worry about it" i say as i put on a fake smile. He inhaled and opened his mouth to try to say something but before he could, i cut him off by standing up from my seat.

"Where are you going?" (Y/N) said. Worry stil laced his voice.

"Im going to start working." I replied without even looking back at him. I slowly walked back into the kitchen still feeling his pained gaze on my back.

(Y/N) cares for me. But it honestly makes me feel worse. He would go out of his way to try and cheer me up and make me happy. Replying to the texts i send him almost instantly and sendjn me funny pictures whenever he's not in the café. He always tells me to keep a smile. He even sends pictures of cute animals to me in the morning and he does all of this everyday without fail.

And despite all this, all that he has done for my sake, i can't even muster up the guts to tell him i love him. Maybe i should just give up? He doesn't deserve me anyway... he deserves someone far better...

And that's a wrap! I know, i know, it's a little depressing but i promisse you this will end well, besides it's only part one and this isn't supposed to be a sad story anyway.

Well i'll leave you at that for now, i'll see if can make part 2 today.

Anyways i'll see you all in the next chapter. Bye-bye!!