Forgotten, But Not Lost

Chapter 11

Jedi Trials

Stage 6 - Focus (Amar)

It was a change of scenery for Amar to say the least, her last and final stage of the trials were before her. She welcomed the beautiful change of greenery and lush meadows before her, there was a distant waterfall and the land was green all to the horizon with bright blue skies. She had so many questions in her head now, she thought that the trials would bring her all her answers but it only brought her more questions of her and Ben's future together.

Was it the force telling her that if they are together that Ben will eventually turn to the dark side, Amar being the main cause of his fall? This was unfair, why would the force give them this connection, then tell them they can't be together?

Amar sat down in the meadow to clear her mind and try and meditate about all the questions she had. She breathed in and out and lightly closed her eyes, she could hear all of the natural sounds around her and then a quick silence as she became one with the force in meditation.

In Amar's mind she asked the force for the answers to her questions.

Show me, please. Show me, what am I supposed to do? Am I not to be with Ben Solo? Have I upset the force by being with him?

Amar felt a swirling feeling of distant whispers all around her, she felt like she was being surrounded with wind that twirled her up in the sky. In an instant, she was back on the ground cross legged, she opened her eyes to find herself sitting in a sterile type room, that was doused all in black and red tapestries. She looked around the room and saw a black bed and off to the other side of it, a man leaning his head on his hands that were resting on his knees. She stayed quiet not knowing what to do, was this something she was to see or be apart of?

The man lifted his head instantly, and his dark raven tuft of hair grazed his shoulders. Amar would know this mound of hair anywhere, it was Ben for sure, but why was he in this room? His face shifted so that Amar could see the side of his face and it was indeed Ben, but she had not seen so much sadness on his face before. He had been crying for sure, but Amar did not know why. He was older than he currently was as well, Amar tried to sneak a little closer to him so she could get a better look at this older Ben.

The floor was made of marble and her shoes made a noise and Ben's head shot to her and their eyes met.

"Ben?" Amar said not knowing if he saw her or not.

Ben's eyes were wide and he wiped his almost dried tears from his face. He had gotten up to further inspect her.

"Who are you? And why are you in my quarters?" Ben closed the gap and instantly put his hand around her neck. He tightened his grip on her throat, but Amar could feel the pause in his decision.

"Ben, I don't understand. It's me, Amar. You know me. We grew up together." Amar squeaked out and tried to further gain another breath.

Ben relaxed his hand on her neck, but kept it there to show his dominance.

"I am no longer Ben, do not call me that and I have no idea who you are."

Amar's breathing returned to her and she was back in the green meadow of Naboo. Amar rose her head to find a set of dark brown boots in front of her. She gasped and got up instantly, in front of her was a man in dark robes, but his aura was surrounded in a blue haze around his whole body.

"Do not be afraid, Amar. I am not here to hurt you." The being tried to comfort her.

"Please, I've had a very trying day. Who are you?" Amar pleaded with him as her voice started to cut out.

"I am Anakin Skywalker, you are troubled my dear and I only want to see if I can offer some peace to give your mind." He sat down in a meditative state just like she had been not long before then. He waved his hand for her to join across from him.

Amar was shocked to say the least, Anakin was standing in front of her. Anakin Skywalker, not as Darth Vader, but as his old Jedi Knight self. Master Luke never talked about his father much, so Amar did not have much information to go off of. Amar sat across from him, still in shock.

Anakin seemed to chuckle to her reaction.

"Amar, forgive me, but I do believe I can give you some help with your situation."

Amar nodded her head to Anakin, being too afraid to talk and exposing how shy she became by the sight of him. She thought in her head that Ben indeed did get some good looks from his grandfather, that was certain, but she instantly shook her head to rid her mind of these thoughts in front of him.

"My grandson carries a lot of weight on his shoulders, as I did when I was his age. When I was told that I was to fulfill this "prophecy" I was consumed by it. I wanted to live up to all of my Masters expectations, and I'm afraid that is what is happening to Ben. Following my path and then of his Uncles, is hard to live up to, but he has you." Anakin claimed to Amar as she sat there flabbergasted.

"But Sir, did you not have Padme? Excuse me if I am being rude, but this is the only thing I really knew about you."

Anakin rolled his eyes knowing that Luke must have not taught much about himself to his Padawan's.

"Yes, you are right, Amar. I did have Padme, but she was not a force wielder and could not help in those specific areas. You must help my grandson, Amar. If he were to fall to the dark side, he will be so consumed with fear and anger like I was. Ben's greatest fear is losing you my dear, I know the path of a Jedi is to let go of this fear, but if he's anything like me, he is passionate for the ones he loves. You two have a connection that is very rare and it needs to stay between the two of you. I fear if that is common knowledge the Sith will seek you out and use it against you."

Amar took her hand to her chin to further her thought process. She thought to herself that her trials had shown her what was to become of Ben if he were to join the dark side due to them being together but Anakin was telling her that they are to stay together and for her to keep him in the light.

Maybe if Ben and herself were to run off and find a peaceful planet to live out their days on, then maybe she would never have to fear Ben ever joining the dark-side. Deep down she knew that would never happen, they knew their place in this galaxy, they needed to be able to aid those in need, It was their calling in life.

Anakin drifted away from in front of her and she was alone again in the meadow. Amar knew that she needed to trust and be there for Ben no matter what path it led them down, she trusted Ben Solo with her life.