Forgotten, But Not Lost

Chapter 21

"Ben?" Amar spoke, but it was a mere whisper. Amar rose and waltzed over to what was now Kylo Ren. Ben remained with his head tilted down, all he felt was shame. Amar stood in front of him and with her hand, raised his chin, so that his eyes would meet hers. In their minds she spoke to Ben.

"What have they done to you Ben? I don't understand. Why are you a Knights of Ren?" Amar slid her hand across Ben's cheek.

"I needed to find a way to gain the ability to find you, if I would have known where you were, none of this would have happened, but it's too late for that. I swore an oath." Ben answered her back through their bond and placed his hands on her sides. As his hands touched her, he was instantly met with a rush of emotion and force coming from Amar and something else he did not know. Ben ran his hands on Amar to find her stomach swollen, Ben looked down in surprise and returned his eyes to Amar.

"Amar, are you with child?" Ben grabbed both of her cheeks in excitement and all Amar could do was nod in agreement. She was taken aback by the way he smiled at her and how his emotions flourished over the news. Ben placed his hands on Amar's belly to show his compassion for her and the babies.

"Ben, not only am I pregnant, I'm carrying twins." Amar continued in their force bond to tell him, but her face became a little timid. All Ben could do was be happy, Amar and himself had created life, and two at that. Amar was stunned by the way Ben's face lit up by the news. He no longer had the creeping darkness, just pure delight.

In that moment, there was no one else. No Snoke. No Knights of Ren. Only Ben and Amar. Ben leaned down to give Amar a passionate kiss and she welcomed it, it had been months since she had been in his arms, but Amar could feel a difference within her other half. There was a power that was built up that Amar had not felt before, in her absence he had let himself become filled with fear and anger.

Amar couldn't help but feel lost, how were they going to get out of this situation? There was no way Snoke was going to let them walk away, considering Snoke was the one keeping her prisoner all this time. That reminding Amar, they were still in the throne room with many eyes still watching them. Amar cleared her throat and gave Ben a look, to remind him of their situation.

Ben turned around to confront Snoke, only to find him back at his throne with the Knights standing their ground and turned away from Amar and Ben. Snoke placed both hands on the arm of the throne and smiled to the both of them with no ounce of happiness behind it.

"Amar dearest, I sense you bring the light in Ben Solo. You have a way about yourself that makes Ben be fully consumed. What a pity, I truly wished I could have had the both of you at my side. Due to your little problem with carrying children, Amar you would never fully turn to the dark side knowing you had children to care for. Kylo Ren you have sworn to serve me and the Knights, with that it doesn't leave much for having a family. I feel there is really only one option."

Snoke then motioned for his guards to take Amar in their arms and separate her from Ben.

Ben wasn't having it though and tried to plead to Snoke.

"Please my Master, don't do this. I will do anything you ask, please just let my family be. Whatever you want, I will do." With that being said Ben got down on one knee as to bow down to the Supreme Leader.

"Ben, no! Don't do this. This is what he wants, he wants you all to himself." Amar struggled against the guards, but they brought their weapons up to her throat as a threat to get her to stop.

Ben turned towards Amar with concerned eyes and pleaded with Snoke again.

"Master, I will give you my life. Just don't hurt her or the babies." As soon as the words escaped Ben's lips, he was met with pure sadness and a deep black abyss forming in his stomach.

Snoke rose to his feet and paced back and forth, looking between both Amar and Ben. Snoke then made a beeline for Ben and stood before him.

"Rise Kylo Ren, if you pledge your life to me and only me. I will spare your families life, but on one other condition." Snoke intently looked at Ben.

Ben could feel the sinking feeling again and he knew whatever he was about to say, was to bring even more pain. Ben nodded for Snoke to proceed.

"Pledge your life and I will take away your memory and force connection from Amar, then I will keep my word and let Amar and your children go and be placed on a safe planet."

Amar couldn't handle it anymore, she needed to do something. She continued to struggle even though the hot blade from the guard started to sear a little on her neck. It did not matter at this point, she was not going to let Ben give his life away for her, let alone have his memories erased. Amar could feel the force swirling around her, she force pushed the guards around her and ran towards Snoke and Ben. Amar could feel Ben carrying her own lightsaber that was left behind, she summoned it to her hands and ignited it to place it at Snoke's neck.

The saber was stopped in mid strike, but it was not by Snoke's hand. Amar looked over at Ben, who had his hand out to stop the blade by his force. Amar could not feel more betrayed than in that moment.

"Ben, what are you doing?" Amar lowered her saber and Snoke took it from her hands.

"Amar, this is the only way and you know it. If I agree to this, it's the only way I know you and the babies will be safe. I know Snoke will keep his word." Ben placed his hand on her cheek and he had tears forming in his eyes. Ben continued his words through their bond.

"My love, I wish there was another way, but there isn't. I will always love you and our unborn babies. I promise, I will come back to you. If not in person then I will by the will of the force, believe that." Ben tears continued to fall.

Amar could not see through her eyes due to the tears filling them as well, but she was not going to let that stop her from what could be the last time she was held by Ben. Amar wrapped her arms around his torso and he held her. Amar replied back through their bond.

"Please Ben, find your way back to me and to your family. I will always love you and I wont stop, not ever." Amar wanted to say more but Snoke interrupted them.

"Guards, grab her and let's get this over with. Amar, I want you to watch as I take all of your Ben Solo from you. Let this be a warning, stay where we put you and don't cause any trouble."

The guards grabbed Amar away from Ben and she could feel Ben's defeat and sadness take over his emotions. She knew at that moment, that he would be consumed by the dark side. Amar did not want to watch her beloved's memories be erased of her, everything they had been through, every thought and every feeling.

Snoke reached out with his hand and let it hover by Ben's head. Suddenly, Ben gasped in pain and fell to his knees. Ben cried out in pain as he raised his hands to his head, Amar wanted to stop this, but she couldn't, there was double the guards on her now. Snoke then placed both hands hovering and intensified his force and Ben fell over his knees, then Snoke suddenly stopped. Just like that, all Amar had loved and cherished inside Ben Solo, was gone.

There was a vast empty hole now residing in Amar's force, where Ben's half that filled her now sat a dark abyss. Amar clutched her belly, her emotions were all over the place and she could not help control it without her balance. Amar looked back up to Ben who was still crumpled over, but Amar could tell he was awake, she could feel it through the force.

Ben's body seemed to stiffen almost immediately after what Snoke had done to him, it was like he had become a different person entirely. Amar watched as Ben rose from his crumpled position to stand fully straight up in front of Snoke. Ben's face was unrecognizable to Amar, it was hard and stern and carried no light in it.

Amar fell to her knees in that moment, just the way his body responded now, was not her Ben. Before her, in that throne room was someone else, someone she no longer felt the force connection with, it was a being full of darkness.

Snoke stood before him and proudly asked, "Ah, what shall I call you my apprentice?"

Without hesitation or the blink of an eye he replied with, "Kylo Ren, my master."