He Ain't For Me

22

Kabanata 22

Hindi na ako nabigla ng madatnan ko ang loob ng classroom namin. Anim lang sila at pang pito ako. Dumiretso ako sa upuan at kinuha ang phone.

"Where are you? Papasok ka ba?"

I texted Anna dahil wala pa sya. 10 minutes nalang at mags-start na ang klasi.

Tinignan ko ang bintana at gaya kanina ay iilan lang ang pumapasok. Van is still not here. And I don't know if I should be thankful.

Ano nalang ang gagawin ko pag nakita ko sya? I wanna go home and stays there hanggang mawala sa isip ko ang nangyari ngayon. Pero mukhang hindi ito basta bastang mawawala. It would probably take weeks or even months.

I calmed my heart for awhile dahil wala naman patutunguhan ang pag kabog nito.
The louder the beats the guiltier the feels.

Pagkatapos ng ilang minuto ay dumating si Anna.

"Hey, you look stress. You fine?" Curious na tanong nito at nilagay ang bag sa upuan.

"Di na ako nakapagreply dahil wala akong load." Umupo ito at humarap sa akin.

"Actually I'm not." Tinignan ko sya at umiling.

"Why? What happened?" She asked sounding concerned.

"I did something terrible." I bit my lower lip at nag iwas ng tingin.

Parang ayokong sabihin dahil sa hiya pero pag hindi ko sinabi ay lalo akong magiisip. I badly need her advice because I couldn't think straight.

"And how terrible is terrible?" She gripped my shoulder at dahan dahang hinarap.

"You couldn't imagine na magagawa ko iyon. Coz I, myself didn't expect it."

Yun ang totoo. I wish i haven't done it.

"Just drop the fucking bomb Sab."
Maarte nyang sabi. She even rolled her eyes.

Bumuga ako ng hangin bago nagsalita.

"BlazeandIkissed." Walang preno kong sabi. I looked at her expression to see disappointment pero iba ang nakita ko. It was confusion.

"What did you just say? Hindi ko nakuha."

Hindi ko alam kung nagbibiro lamang sya but based on her expression she's serious.

"Blaze and I kissed!" Ulit ko. And there I saw how her mouth opened. Para syang nabuhusan ng malamig na tubig.

"Oh my God Samantha!" She said hysterically.

I immediately covered her mouth at tinignan ang mga kaklasi.

Buti nalang wala silang pakialam.

"Could you lower your voice? Someone might hear you." Inalis ko na yung kamay ko sa bibig nya.

"Sorry I just. didn't. expect it." She said still gawking.

"What should I do now? What if Van finds out? What if may nakakita sa amin? Gosh nasa public pa man din kami." Nasstress na sabi ko at sinuklay ang buhok gamit ang aking mga daliri.

"Okay, calm down. Ganito na lang. Sabihin mo nalang kay Van ang lahat in that way kung magalit sya at least sayo galing hindi yung malalaman pa nya sa iba." Concern na sabi nito.

"I don't know how to confront her. I don't how to say that her friend is secretly screwing her boyfriend. I know I've stopped, I pushed him away but you think she will believe me? She will surely say that I am a damn whore." Halos maiyak na paliwanag ko kay Anna ngayon.

She rubbed my back.

"If she didn't believe you, I will tell her that you are saying the truth. But just understand na magagalit sya sayo dahil hindi mo sinabi sa kanya na may namagitan sa inyo ni Blaze. And worse nag kiss pa kayo kanina. But don't worry I'm here." She said in a comforting voice.