I guess I should say this now, although it's definitely pretty obvious, but I don't have answers. I wish I did. I've always wanted to be that guy that did, but I don't. It angers me. In the end, I'm just a wuss. I should take my own and literally anyone else's advice and change right? Even if I do, it's at the wrong time, or it's a change that someone else doesn't want or even frankly deserve, and I just never end up realizing it when I should. I'm gonna keep working on being less selfish. That's a definite. Otherwise, I guess all I am is just a scared fuck that can't do a whole lot. If that's how it is then I guess that's how it is. As long as I can be there for you, then that's all that matters to me. You're the only person I guess I feel completely comfortable with. Pretty ironic considering this isn't the physical world we're talking in. Even though accepting the shitty state I'm in is probably wrong, I'm literally just sick of constantly changing all the fucking time. It's the worse feeling when wanting to benefit yourself so you can legitimately benefit others feels selfish. It feels like absolute snit when every decision you make feels like the wrong one. I didn't realize I've been living in fear and anger for so long. I didn't realize I'd be so angry today too. If none of this makes sense or is just me spewing shit then I don't blame you for thinking that. It's just how I feel.
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Born Into A Coffin
Non-FictionA prisoner details his experiences in jail while he waits to be put on death row or get bailed out.
