Unraveled Ties and Love's Demise

Price

Time heals. Time destroys. Time can do so much things. But it can't erase scars. It will free you from pain, but never free you in your cage. You can see the world, but never walks around it. You can love someone by all your heart, but never claim them as yours. Because just like time, there are things in the world that wasn't yours in the first place.

"Good morning, hon." Blaze, my husband, kissed my cheeks. I placed the toasts on the table. It is typical Friday morning. I was doing my daily duties a his wife.

"Good morning! Breakfast is ready. Come on, honey," umupo ako sa aking silya habang pinagmamasdan ang makisig kong asawa .

We're two years married. With no child. But then, as much as I want to have our little angels in our house, I believe that God will bless us with what we wanted when the right time comes. And just like what I always remind myself is before, having no kids don't make you less of a woman. Yes, every child is a blessing but also keep in mind that this opinion is reversible. Instead, ask yourself, are you a blessing to your kid? That is why I don't want to rush because time will eventually bring to us what we want.

"What time will you arrive later, hon?" I put some maple syrup on my bread while he was drinking from his cup of coffee. I was always alone in his big house and it feels lonely. I grew up not wanting all of this. I just wanted to have a simple small house with my family inside.

"Hmm. Maybe earlier than before?" he laughed and kissed my cheeks before standing up. He's leaving since the clock strikes already at 8.

I was left again alone in this big house. Hindi naman ako pwede lumabas dahil hindi ko kabisado ang daan dito, kaya palagi lang akong nasa loob ng bahay, naglilinis at nanunuod ng mga movies. You know, like what I've said, wife duties. I looked at our wedding picture. Nakasukbit ito sa taas. Napakalaki nito at halos sakupin ang buong sala. Blaze was smiling side. He was the most pretty creature I saw in this planet. His eyes, nose, lips, everything about him is just so perfectly perfect. And for me, he is the best thing that happened in my life.

But then, life isn't just all about rainbows. One day, you will see yourself walking in the stairs of broken glasses, looking for answers on the same question running inside your head over and over again.

"Hindi na kayo magkakaanak," my whole world spun. How many times did I heard these words for this week? I guess five times. I fee like someone stepped on me and broke me into pieces. To the point that I cannot even pick my own fragments.

"No. If you can test my wife over and over again, do it!" Blaze screamed. It was very hard for him. He always wanted to have his own child. He always told me before we sleep how he wants his kids running inside our house.

"But Mr. Veneracion, we did the tests five times already, and the result is the same, " my gynecologist said as finality.

It was the end for both of us. He became wreck. The person that I no longer know. He became different person.

"You know what? Sana hindi nalang kita pinakasalan, you can't even bear a child," those are the most painful words I heard from him.

He became worst. At first I can swallow every emotional and physical abuse that he throws but the one night, he brought the price of my lacking.

"Blaze naman, how can your heart take this? How can you bring girls inside this house? How can you screw other girls while I'm inside our room crying my eyes out?" I lashed at him because I can't take it anymore.

"Don't start, Aleyna!" I closed my eyes when I heard that name. "Sa guest room ko naman dinadala ah? Bakit sa kwarto ba natin? Stop being so nosy and sensitive! Saka ka na mag inarte kung kaya mo na magkaanak," ginalaw niya ang baso na may lamang alak.