Just Too Sick To Function

05

Emma's POV:
The scent of coffee in my room makes me so happy, I used to like coffee.

But now, I believe I cannot have it.

I found myself painting him, but not detailed though, no face features, just him, his figure.

Ba't ngaba naisipan kong i paint siya? Mayghad!

Pumasok na naman si Rosa sa room ko, dala-dala lunch ko and meds. May dala rin siyang Blood Pressure Apparatus, yan ba tawag dyan?, ahhh basta yung pang measure ng blood pressure hahaha

Chineck niya yun at ni record.

"Is it him?", Rosa asked, looking at my painting
"Yeah, anyways, thanks for bringing me my needs Rosa, I really appreciate it", partly, I did it so that we can avoid the subject.

But then, she brought it back

"He's beautiful", referring to my painting. It is quiet astonishing, and realizing that I used coffee for the first time ever amazed me.

It amazed me because seriously, Im not that good.

I just can't hold back my curiousity so I asked Rosa about him, maybe she knows.

"Is he new here?", I asked
"No, he got here a week ago", she replied

How come I didn't notice him?

"Malala naba ang case niya?" I asked again,

I know Rosa feels that Im really interested in this guy, so she replied, "You're really interested in him, huh?"

I just laughed, like awkwardly.

"I do believe", she answered

"Baka hindi pa niya accept", I can hear the concern in my voice, I know the feeling

"I don't know honey, I don't really know much about him. He had asthma, and you know, he was prone sa sakit kaya I believe talaga na hindi na maganda yung case niya, malala na ata, ni hindi ko nga alam kung bakit hindi niya sinuot oxygen tube niya kanina eh", she paused, "hirap na kaya para sa kanya huminga w/o the support"

"Pero ang mahalaga, nakapag desisyon niyang mag seryoso sa treament niya", ani ko

"Yep, buti pa siya", alam kong nagpabati-bati siya

"Hey, Im doing my best here", I laughed, we both laughed, "you had to say it? Ni hindi niya nga sinuot yung oxygen tube niya kanina ah", I laughed, "ang kulit".

"Oh sige, kumain ka na,", sabi naman niya, "baka pupunta si Doktora dito later, we have to you know, to check you up again, to see if you're getting better", she said with a smile.

I know she's trying to give me hope.

"Have a nice lunch Rosa!", sigaw ko habang palabas siya.

I enjoyed my lunch, it was great while I watched a movie.

I know this may sound absurd but plano kong pumunta kay Marcus, to like you know, see if he's okay?

Ano ba naman 'to Ems?, the guy barely knows you, san galing tong concern nato?

Oo nga, ba't ko nga ba siya iniisip.

Pero tinuloy ko pa rin, pumunta ako sa room niya, sumilip ako sa mini window ng door niya, weird pero wala siya don.

Baka nag eexplore ng ospital. Bumalik ako sa room ko at natulog.