Just Too Sick To Function

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Author's note: I'm so sorrryy, I have a lot of errors sa last updates ko, like a lot. Grammars, Pronouns and Nouns, I am so sorryyy.
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Emma's POV

Bagong taon na naman, it's been 2 months since Meryl's funeral

Hindi ako nagcelebrate ng bagong taon, hindi ko naman gustong mag celebrate kaya hinayaan nalang ako ni mama

Nag stay muna ako sa bahay after Meryl's funeral

A lot of things happened in those 2 months, good or bad

But everything was not back to normal, it was not easy losing a friend

Nakabalik lang ako sa hospital last week, sabi nga ni Marcus na miss niya daw ako

Okay lang ako, nagcocontinue pa rin sa dialysis ko.

Si Marcus naman, parang gumagaling na

I am happy he is getting well

Naalala ko tuloy yung sinabi niya sa'kin noon na hindi niya raw ako iiwan.

I guess that's why I'm happy na gumagaling na siya. Maybe because I
can't again witness my friends dying

Si Clent naman, busy na rin sa school

Things went well with him in school, ranked top 1 pa rin

Sabi niya sa'kin hindi na raw siya masyadong nag-aalala sa grades niya

Sabi ko na ngang kaya niya e, he's doing great

I am happy for him because he participated sport tournaments he badly wanted to join, noon kasi, ipinagbabawal ng mama niya

And Meryl..

I still think about her, I still look at our pictures

Pero hindi na talaga ako bumalik sa roof top, kahit gustong-gusto ko, pipigilan ko talaga sarili ko.

Ngayon, March 2019 na.

Tapos na nga silang nag final quarter exam ni Clent, sabi nila, bibisitahin raw nila kami pagkatapos sa school year

"Pupunta ako sa grocery store, may ipapabili ka ba?", sabi ni tito Ronald nang lumabas siya sa CR

Siya pala ang boyfriend ni mama

We became closer as the months pass by, especially because I went through some really hard times too

He was there, comforted me like a father

Lumingon ako sa kanya, "no thanks tito"

"Okay", he nodded as he said those

"Kukunin mo na rin ba si mama? Paki-remind sa kanya na wala na akong masusuot, baka nakalimutan niya e"

"Okay Ems, mauna ka nalang kumain, okay? Baka matatagalan kami", sabi niya

I just smiled and nodded, "okay"

At kumilos na siya papalabas sa room ko

"Nandiyan ba si Emma tito?", narinig ko ang boses ni Marcus sa door

Kaya tinawag ko siya kaagad, "Pasok!!" I shouted happily

Hindi nalang umimik si tito Ronald at pumasok nalang siya

As soon as I saw him, I smiled

"Hey gorgeous", he said as he smiled too

Ngumiti ako habang papalapit siya para yakapin ako