Just Too Sick To Function

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Marcus' POV:

When she let go of the words,

I feel myself breaking down,

I feel myself also broken

She was like lost, and I don't want her to be like that.

Yes, as you all can say, I like Emma but I pretend not to.

Hindi ako naniniwala sa love at first sight pero iba sa kanya

I like her the first time I saw her

But I somehow hate that I like her, I don't want to like someone because...

I'm afraid

May sakit ako, and if ever, I don't want one of us to risk our lives at the end para lang sa aming dalawa

Hindi ko gustong mawalan kami ng pake sa sarili dahil maybe we'll choose us being "together" than choosing what's good for the both of us

Ano na? Patayan?

It's dangerous and pathetic at the same time

Pero kahit mag cringe pa ako sa thought na ma inlove, kung inlove kana, wala kanang pake kung ikaw yung pinaka jeje na tao pag nag eexpress ka sa pagmamahal mo, ma rerealize mo lang yun pag break na kayo HAHAHAH

Eh gawin mo lahat para mapastay yung tao eh

Hindi ko yun gusto kaya kahit minsan, hindi ko na mapigilan, pipilitin ko parin ang sarili ko na hindi magkakagusto sa kanya

And it hurts

May freedom ako para mag mahal pero ba't parang nawala yun dahil sa sakit kong 'to?

Emma is a brave girl, she chose to break up with her boyfriend dahil hindi niya gustong mag suffer si Rhedd, pero tingnan mo, hindi pa nga nakaka move on

Hindi paba?

Kumakain na kami ngayon, sunod-sunod na yung paghahang-out namin, and it's actually feels good.

"So in conclusion, hindi kapa nakaka move on?" , tanong ko

She froze, "I'm.. I'm getting into it, e ikaw? May ex ka na ba?"

"Emma, you need to let him go, ba't mo pa yun ginawa kung hindi mo naman pala kayang pakawalan?", sabi ko na naman

"Hindi yan nakapag bigay ng sagot sa tanong ko", naiirita niyang sabi

There was this weird silence for a few seconds

"Yep", I paused, "We're still great friends though", I took one bite of my sandwhich

"Well, that's great", I can hear the hesitation in her voice, it's as if she doesn't know how to respond,

"Anyways, pumunta si Clent dito kahapon, I told him about you", she changed the topic

"And then?"

"His face was unreadable", she replied, "I don't know, baka nasanay na siyang kami lang dalawa", she continued

"Not guilty tho, I'm thankful kaya we met", she smiled

She's so pretty, "Bagay sayo ang ngumiti",

I paused and focused on the sandwhich, she looked at me , I looked at her, "Maganda ka"

She laughed at what I said, "Ano yun? Anong show yun Marcus? HAHAHHAHAHA"