Just Too Sick To Function

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Marcus' POV

I do hope she didn't notice my hair the other day, it was crazy

It's starting to fall off as treatments keep on going

I know it's natural and I already knew it was coming

Nothing new, I guess?

Hindi talaga maganda pakiramdam ko ngayon, it's so hard to breathe, I'm so tired kahit wala namang ginagawa at nawawalan ako ng gana kumain

The doctors said I should not skip meals as it will somehow help me feel better.

Kaya ayon, dahan-dahan ko nalang sinusubo 'tong pagkaing nasa harap ko

Kamusta na kaya si Emma o si Meryl?

There's Emma who's acting really weird, I mean, c'mon, she was not like that

And the freak, she came to my room and asked me about Margarette, why does she care?

It's just so weird

And here's Meryl, hindi ko alam kung ba't ang hype niyang gumawa ng mga bagay-bagay, parang hindi nawawalan ng energy, e siya naman yung pinakamasakiting tingnan sa aming tatlo

"How are you feeling right now, nak?"

"Not okay", maikli kong sagot kay mama

She has been worried sick since I told her about my hair the other day and started forcing me to like get a hair cut or something

C'mon, maliit lang naman 'yon, I just freaked out because it was the first time

But all in all, I guess I'm fine, mag go nalang ako sa buzz cut kapag ang lala na talaga

Plus, nabasa ko sa internet na depende lang naman yung hair loss sa hair length, no wonder kung ba't nagpapa hair cut si Meryl ng ganon.

"I'm always telling the doctors what you feel, even if it's a little thing, I know they know about your sickness more than I do but I don't want them to miss a detail"

"Mom", I started

"What?", she asked in teasing tone

"You don't have to do that, don't stress about this, I'm gonna survive, hindi ako magpapatalo sa sakit na'to"

"You don't know that", sabi niya habang niligpit mga gamit niya

It's a rainy monday today, may work na pala

"Ang negative mo Ma, let's be positive naman"

Lumapit ako sa kanya para yakapin siya

I knew she smiled when she felt my warm hug, "okay, let's stay positive", she faced me, "I love you"

"love you too"

"Oh sige, mauna na ako ha, if you really need anything anak, you can freely call for help, wag nang mahiya"

I just smiled

"Now, I'm just worried, you're not feeling well and here I am, still going to work. How about I'll skip work today?"

I gave her a laugh, "that's a bad idea"

"C'mon hon"

"I'll be okay, I promise"

"Promise mo yan ha?"