Just Too Sick To Function

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Emma's POV

December na ngayon, wala namang ganap sa buhay ko

It's again the last month of the year, I wonder kung may pahabol pa kayang mangyayari sa month na ito

I'm just staring blankly on my wall full of pictures, the one I decided to put designs on a few months back

I don't know what Marcus is up to nowadays and Meryl rarely visits me

She said she's been feeling worse lately

Clent visited me the other day and showed me his exam papers, he said his rather excited to show it to me than to his mother

He also told me about the fight they had last month, I'm a bit mad to him about not telling me but I get his point

Si Mama naman, hindi ko alam kung ano na ang nangyari sa boyfriend niya.

And I thought, maybe all this stress can affect me, I decided then to meditate and relax here in my room

Hindi naman siya madali, it's a lot harder than I think, considering all these things going on around me, I had a hard time controlling my thoughts

Tama na'to, I thought

Tumayo ako at humiga ako sa higaan, binuksan ko ang phone ko at dumiretso sa youtube, nanunood nalang ako ng random videos about kpop

Hanggang sa nakatulog ako, nang magising ako, nakita kong wala na ang phone ko sa mga kamay ko at on na yong T.V

Tumingin ako sa paligid at narinig kong may nag flush sa CR

Hindi nagtagal, lumabas si Clent

"Oh hey, what brings you here?", tanong ko habang inayos ko sarili ko

I turned off the TV, kasi naman, hindi na kaya ng hearing abilities pag may nagsasabayng nagsasalita, hindi makuha ang full message

"Gising ka na pala, nilagay ko cellphone mo doon, ikaw kasi", sabi niya habang kumuha siya ng tissue

"Just clumsy", I giggled at the thought of me tolerating myself to do that, noon kasi, pinilit kong buksan mata ko para lang ilagay ang cellphone ko malayo sa'kin

Umupo siya sa visitor's chair at tumingin sa'kin, parang humihintay sa masasabi ko

"Kamusta na kayo sa Mama mo?", tumayo ako dahil nagugutom ako, dumiretso ako sa lamesang may nakalagayng grapes

Kumuha ako ng isang maliit na plato para lagyan sa grapes ko, matagal bago ako sinagot ni Clent

"Okay lang, she doesn't bother me anymore about my studies. Pero enough about me, how about you?", he is exaggerating his look at me

"What? I'm fine", I said

I get a glimpse at the mirror, I really don't, I thought

He made a blank face

"I mean, look at you, you're supposed to look happy or I don't know, healthier, perhaps?", he said

I let out a short laugh, "what do you mean?"

"You don't radiate the same energy", he said

Tumawa ako, awkwardly, at bumalik sa bed ko

"Do you really think so?", I asked

He nodded