Just Too Sick To Function

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Emma' s POV

Meryl's been showing good energy lately, and it's making me happy somehow

Marcus even teased me

I'm being too obvious

A few days pass after our Christmas Party and it's only a few days away before New Year

It's going to be a good year end

Nandito ako sa room ko nagwawatch lang ng Kdrama

Wala si Marcus ngayon, umuwi siya sa bahay nila kasi uuwi raw yung mga cousins nila for the New Year

Hindi ko alam kung ba't kailangan pa niyang pumunta sa bahay nila kung pwede naman ang pinsan nalang niya ang pupunta dito

Pero sabi niya may asikasohin padaw sila, so hindi nalang ako nakiki-alam

Mama's out too, I don't know what she's busy about these days but I'm somehow fine with it

Si Meryl naman, she doesn't want me to visit her in person but we keep on messaging eachother, even at this moment

Clent's not allowed anymore to go here, baka next year pa daw yung next visit niya

Which is fine, really fine

"Hey honey, got something for you", pumasok si Rosa sa room ko

The way she showed me the gift, it's cute

I muted the T.V

"Ohhh thank you, what's this?", I asked as I received the gift

"Buksan mo, sana magustuhan mo", sabi niya

Binuksan ko ang regalo niya, it's a diary and little book full of words of encouragement

Ngumiti ako kay Rosa, "Oh I love it, thank you very much", I said

"Mom said she's getting something for you, so baka bukas ko pa maibibigay", sabi ko habang tumayo ako para ilagay ko sa table ko

"Walang problema 'yon", niligpit niya ang pinagkainan ko

"Kamusta na pala family mo?", I asked

"Okay lang naman", lumingon siya sa'kin, "nothing bad's happening"

Bumalik ako sa higaan ko, "That's great, mom's out going lately, I do hope it's only about the boyfriend", I said and laughed a little

She smiled as she exited the room, "Well, I wish for the best for you two, Merry Christmas baby"

"Merry Christmas Rosa, thank you so much", I replied

And she exited the room

Now, I got to replay my Kdrama kasi hindi ako nakapag focus kanina

Ang careless ko naman, hindi pinause.
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The weather has been good, at maganda rin ang sunsets

Sumilip ako sa room ni Meryl bago ako pumunta dito, nasa roof top na pala ako, nag-iisa

Nakita kong may mga bisita siya, kaya hindi nalang ako nagpakita sa mama niya, baka papapasukin na naman ako

Anyways, I am contemplating about myself

Parang kinukumusta ko na rin sarili ko

Am I okay? Am I doing fine? Do I look okay? Did I overcome fear? Just those stuff