love is underrated.

Chapter Sixty-Eight.

The plane had landed and we were both back home safe at Payton's house. His sister and mom are here and we're just getting settled in un-packing. The room was silent, awkwardly silent. I knew Payton had things to say and that he wants to get them out. I watched as he struggled stuffing his clothes back into his closet and I sighed knowing he needed help. "Here." I said talking the pile of clothes from his grip as I began to fold them a store them away neatly in the closet. "Thanks." He said with his hands rested on the back of his neck. "You were having quite the struggle." I laughed trying to lighten the mood. It was no use I know he was pissed. "Pay just say what you're thinking, I can't stand this." I said laying back on the bed as I stared at the ceiling. "It's nothing, you said after the holidays remember?" He snarled as he just sat in his chair across the room staring in my direction. "Fine then let me tell you." I propped my body up on my elbow so I could see him eye to eye.

He stood to his feet and came to join me on the bed. He sat leaning against the wall and as far from me as he possibly could. "I wasn't trying to get back with Jaden." I said first starting of the dreaded conversation. He sighed rolling his eyes and I didn't know with way to take it. "I know that." I looked back shocked. What was he really thinking because now I had no idea. "I was just talking about maybe if I hadn't have come to tour if him and I would have still ended up the way we did, and all that stuff wouldn't have happened with Ant and this?" I said looking down at my arms that were now bandage and stitch free. "Yes I get that but that also means you were thinking about a life without me." He didn't make eye contact with me so I knew these words hurt him to say. "I wouldn't ever want that." I replied placing my hand on his leg only for him to push it away. "Payton." I cooed softly.

 I didn't think this would hurt him so much . "Like you said, when you had no memory of me you we're happy to see Jaden there, as your boyfriend." He still made no eye contact with me and I couldn't stand it. I moved around on the bed and straddled over his legs so he couldn't avoid looking at me. I grabbed his hands and placed them on my waist. Even though his touch wasn't voluntary it still drove me crazy and made me melt even more each second his hands were on me. "That's different now, I knew something was missing but it was never far and I'm yours now. Forever." I lent my head against his shoulder and whispered the last word in his ear. I saw the hair raise on his neck and I knew he was loving this more then he let on. 

I smiled to myself knowing that I knew what we both needed. The sexual tension in the air was killing us. "How about I show you just how much I need you. All of you." I whispered again just for him to lowly hum in agreement. I kissed below his ear. Attaching my lips to the soft skin of his neck as I began to suckle a little in the spots I remember him liking the most. My hands trailed down his body and up at the bottom of his shirt to feel his perfectly toned abs underneath tensing as my tongue moved magic against his skin. "Off." He mumbled as he pulled his shirt over his hair. His hand trailed down my legs and he pushed with pressure so I slid underneath him hand his body hovered and pressed against mine. "Let me." He said in my ear as his hand softly slid down into my leggings. I let out a sharp gasp as his index finger circled around my bundle of nerves. He knew I was at my breaking point when I bit down into my lip and my eyes screwed shut. I whimpered under his touch as I was about to release the pressure building up inside and he stopped removing his hand from my touch in one swift action. "No." I whined as he looked down at me with that of so familiar cheeky grin. His lips joined mine and he kissed me softly and with so much passion. These were the kisses I missed. 

Standing from the bed he pulled my panties and leggings down my legs leaving me completely bare in his presents and I was far from embarrassed. He looked down at me for a few seconds and he only smirked when his eyes met my heat. "Lets make you more wet for me." he said as he tightly grabbed and rubbed his bulge through his boxers. He lay down on top of me once again only this time he trailed his kissed down my body, igniting my skin with each simple touch. I jolted under his lips as the pleasure consumed me. I was a mess with him. The uncontrollable love and lust in this moment consumed every inch of my body. "Pay." I Gasped as his tongue striped between my legs and my hand dove down into his bed of hair and I tugged at the roots to try and control his movements. "Again." He whispered against me and the hot breath leaving his mouth only made me want more. I tugged at his hair again the more and more he made me come undone. He moaned against me indication he wanted more. I pulled him by his biceps as the held him just enough away from me so he could take in the glorious view he knew he had created. "I want all of you." I softly smiled as he smirked and with one hand pulled his boxers down and out of the equation. 

"Water?" He giggled as he lay next to me as I finished unraveling and panting from the best sex I have ever had. I nodded as a smiled grew on my face just thinking about how good he makes me feel. "I think we should have make-up sex more often." I said rolling to my side so I could watch him as he got off the bed to get dressed. "You're so gorgeous when your hair is all messy." He said ruffling my hair as he kissed my shoulder. "Don't be long I want cuddles." I smiled as I played with his fingers as he stood over me. "I can't promise anything, Joanna defiantly heard and I know I'm about to get question." He replied and my cheeks flushed a bright shade of pink. "I'm sorry, it's your fault really you wanted to make me scream." I winked sarcastically but really I meant it and so did he. "Well we will have to work on keeping you quiet." I smiled when he said that, the idea made me want more. "Go before I get you back in here." I launched a pillow at him as he opened the door closing it behind him.