Two Worlds

Chapter 24

My home in front of me just as I had left it 4 days back, running in I find my mother at the stove just like she is most nights at this time, making dinner for dad, herself and me usually. At the slam of the door she shots round to see me.

"My baby, you came back!" she cried as she pulled me in a hug. "Richie, our baby came back"

"What?" I hear my dad crumble from the front room. "Dinner can't be done already, you just started!"

"Get your behind in here now!" Mum shouted through to him.

"Ok-ok stop shouting, you turning into a speed co-!" He mumbled out as he entered the kitchen and looked at me, his eyes going wide and a big smile appearing on his face. He ran and enveloped me in a huge hug. "Snickerdoodle, you came home!"

"Yep, I am home!" I say with a smile on my face, but deep in me I feel a tug and an unhappy feeling but I ignore it.

We spent the night together in the front room and hugged and I told them all that happened, well all but Luc. now I am away from him, I see how attached I was getting, he took my first kiss and I did not care at the time. But now I feel a hollow part in me, like something is missing. I am scared it is him that is missing, but I will not be bent to that ache in me.

I miss Qwen,Sharni and Con too but I hope they understand why I came back, it was too much, I felt like I was betraying my family here.

Over the next few days I spent a lot of time with my parents and made up to them, even if they did not know I was doing so. After that my mum kept nagging me if I was returning to my routine, not that she did not love me being there, but that I may want more than just them in my life. Which is true and I need to eat more, my mum would see me over eating if I just stayed at home. I got my shifts back at the pizzeria and talked to Raina about being back to work soon, she was happy I was back safe.

But despite my happiness from being here, the ache was getting worse and worse. My heart felt broken and I was losing interest in things, I did not feel like singing and my dad has noticed my smiles are not always true. I know I am missing him, but how do I miss him so much, why am I missing him so much, we only just met.

After a week I was back in the routine of home, and I loved seeing everyone but it felt wrong, like this was not right. I pushed through the feelings and went forward. Weirder was the voice in my head kept piping back up now, it kept calling "mate" and saying " we need mate" no other words no really speech just them words.even Raina had noticed something wrong with me, or more that I was losing weight.

"Hey girly, what's up with you?" she asked as we sat outside work one evening waiting for her family to pick her up.

"What? I am just fine!" I lie easily to her, or so I thought.

"You my friend are not just fine!" she tells me.

"Why you think that?" I ask as I try to evade the question.

"Well, you are quieter than usual, you eat less and you do not sing anymore, not even humming!" she points out using her fingers to knock the points off.

"Truthfully?" I ask.

"No lie to me again!" she tells me sarcastically.

"I do not know, I just do not feel right. I do not care anymore and I feel hollow inside!" I tell her sadly. "I am home I should be happy"

"If I didn't know better I would say you lost your soulmate!" She says offhandedly.

"You know about soulmates?" I asked, shocked.