Inevitable - sidnaaz Journey post BB

Inevitable Part 40

They had dinner with his Mom, and to anyone else looking she would have sounded perfectly fine, except him, he knew her all too well to know she was not herself yet and was putting up an act of being normal just so that she doenst hurt his mom.. He couldn't wait to get her alone and fix these issue between them.. It was killing him inside..

She had not broached the subject on her own again, but he could see she was debating talking to him.. she was weighing her words, not wanting to hurt him again.. She was not ready for another spell just yet especially when they had only a day left together before she has to fly back again.

"I am sorry .." he said to her as soon as they got back to his room after having dinner.. They were both snuggling on the bed..

She looked at him .. He is usually not the one who says sorry even if he means it or owes it. She feathered her fingers on his chin..

"kyun? "

"kyunki meine tera dil dukhaya.. "

She just nodded her head not saying anything further.. other than her anger, this is the second thing that scares Sidharth the most.. her silence.. her words usually are his way inside her mind and soul. And she allows unadulterated access to him always.. But when she closes off on him like this, which thankfully is very seldom, makes him go anxious not knowing what is going on in her head..

"Oyy" he put his hand over her stomach and moved her a little.. "bol na kuchh.. abhi bhi hurt hai? Abhi to meine sorry bhi bol diya " he said imitating her voice trying to lift her mood..

Unphased by his attempt she replied , "mein bhot hurt hui tere words se Sidharth.. " she said in solemn voice not yet looking at him and he quickly sobered up pulling her even closer...

"Malum hai meri jaan.. "

"mein tuze itna pyar karti hu.. khud se bhi jyada.. aur tu hai ki tuze bharosa hi nahi hai mujhpe..."

"Oyy abhi bakwas mat kar haan Shehnaaz.. meine ye nahi kaha ki mein trust nahi karta tuzpe.. "

"To iska matlab hi kya hua ki tu ja jiske pass jana hai.. " She looked at him accusation clear in her voice ..

He pursed his lips at her words.. he knew he had messed up words, and wanted to correct her further that is not what he meant, his trust had nothing to do with it, but he knew he had made a blunder and how much ever he try to explain now would only hurt her more anyway, and not wanting to do that anymore he refrained..

"Ho gaya na.. abhi meine sorry bhi bol diya? Abhi kyu bol rahi hai fir se wahi wahi?? Chill kar abhi.. "

She kept quiet for a couple of moments, but he knew she was far from done.. he waited for her next question holding his breath..

"Tu reh lega mere bagair agar mein tuze chhod ke kisi ke pass chali jau to?? She asked after a moment passed, her voice again laced with grave defeat..

His grip on her tightened.. "NO" he said firmly..

She smiled involuntary thankful that her face was hidden from him on his chest ..

"to fir kyun bola? Jo mean hi ni karta wo kyu bola?? Bataa.."

"reh nahi paunga but agar tu khush hai to I will bear that too.. "

She hit him hard on chest seating up a little balancing on her elbow her anger flaring up again..

"tu wapas wahi kar raha hai Sidharth.. tu chhata kya hai mein chali jau?? Ya tuze jana hai kisi ke pass isliye mujhe ye bol raha hai??" she asked him seething in anger..