The moment I saw you

Chapter 22

"Seriously?" I say looking at him and the bike
"Come on!"
"You are telling me to sit on a bike"
"Hey it's not a bike okay it's H-D"
"I don't know what that is but the seat is very small what if I fall the last time I sat on motorcycle was with my dad in 8th std and he assured me that I won't fall"
"You won't fall now come!" He says in a soothing voice i slowly sit on the bike and hold him by his shoulder he takes my hands and wrap it around his chest
"I bet your boyfriend won't mind unless you are alive and girls die for this position you know"
"I bet they choose positions in bed rather than this"
"How do you know that"
"Now let's go Rahul or else this Simran will take the cab"
After we reach hospital I hold Rehaans hand tightly he holds my hand firmly assuring me that he won't leave
"Don't worry Kaur I won't leave you"
I wanted to tell him that he did left me few years back but this is not the right time to talk about the past all that matters is this time he won't leave me
"I'm gonna kill you if you did"
The nurse take us to the doctors cabin the whole time during the check up Rehaan was there smiling at me assuring me and the bad memories of hospital didn't affect me much but I did wanted to see Bryan right now I was just missing him
"Do you have any kind of disease?" Doctor asked me
"Yeah I have bronchitis and once I had influenza"
"Do you still feel breathless sometimes?"
"Yes when I get cold or cough"
"Well it was just a fever this time but make sure you don't catch cold next time and do keep taking your medicines"
"So I'm fine now"
"Yes ms Kaur you are for now" He says as he write down some prescription after the check up we leave the cabin
"Does your parents know you were ill"
"No I can't tell them they'll get worried albeit they didn't want me to come here"
"And why is that?"
"Cold weather makes me sick easily so it was kind of hard to convince them that I'll take care of myself"
"So why are you here?"
"Because I like cold places you can't stop loving things which are harmful for you that's a human nature"
"So cold temperature isn't good for you?" He ask I nod my head
"so why are you here"
"This is my dream I can't stop dreaming because of my disease if I don't pursue my dream I might stay safe but dead from inside so it's better chase things that makes you feel alive"
"Okay dreamer try to stay alive!" He says joking at me

As he drops in front of my house
"Did you have dinner?"
"No but I already cooked" I said in case if he'll ask me to go out with him I would've a good reason
"So you ain't gonna ask me to come for dinner you know I miss Indian food I have no one here to cook for me and ..."
"Stop! You don't have to give a emotional speech, Get in"
"Great thank you"
"I have made malai paneer is that okay? or else I can make something else for you? I ask him as I stir paneer
"Who says no to paneer and I see you are a quite chef now?"
"Now go get on the table I'll bring the food"
I quickly pour the curry into the bowl and some chapattis(rotillas) on a plate
"Here" I place the bowl on the table and pour the curry on to his plate
"Damn it tastes amazing, ummm how much would you take for making this food for me everyday" he says as he continues to eat and chew every bite with closed eyes
"Sorry! I won't It's just Sunday special"
"So why don't you invite me for dinner every Sunday"
"I'll think about it" I say getting up from my seat and moving towards the kitchen I hear Rehaan following me to the kitchen why is this house so quiet I could even hear his footsteps
He stands behind me now my back is brushing his chest as he places his dish right next to me all I can see is right now his arm as he keeps the dish and he moves a little back
"You lied to me yesterday didn't you?" He said suddenly
After listening to that question I got froze I could feel the air around me getting thicker i continue to put the dishes in the dishwasher
"What do you mean by that" I said
"Yesterday when I asked you why you didn't came in relationship back then you said no one ever wanted to come in relationship with you"
"That wasn't a lie" well it wasn't I mean partially it was true I only got guys who wanted to hook up with me but there was one more reason but it doesn't matter now
"It might be the second reason" he says as he suddenly holds my arm and turns me back to look at him his hands are still firmly holding my shoulder
"Oh so you think there was another reason?"
"Yes and I wish you told me that back then"
"What is the matter with you?"
"Is that true that you loved me?"
I stand there flummoxed not knowing what to say
"Doesn't matter it was in past" i say in a strangled voice
"It matters to me and I wished you told me that back then" he says in a wretched expression
"What difference would that have made?" I say looking at him
"A lot but why didn't you said that to me" he said in a low voice
"This is a moot point" I say as I try to get out of his hold and walk out from the kitchen
"I waited everyday for you" He says that made me stop I look back at him
"For what? To rebuff me, to tell me that Sorry Anaya I don't feel the same for you or to just leave me broken"
He shifts in his place he was about to say something but I stop him
"Yes I lied, the reason why I never came in relationship with anyone was because I had a crush on you but slowly It turned into love and everytime I saw you with girls I would wonder why would he fall for me, so whenever a guy came and tell me I like you I used to say sorry I'm not really into any of this stuff" I move closer to him "because no matter how hard you try you can't fall for anyone else when deep down your heart has already filled with love of someone" i say tear rolling down on my face I quickly wipe it away
"After all you were just a playboy, heartthrob, the guy who never wanted a relationship and I was hopelessly in love with you"
"You never noticed didn't you?" He says
"What I didn't notice huh!"
"I know you use to look at me but whenever you looked away did you notice I looked at you too may be more than you, every time I used to hear you rejected another guy just made me lose my hope that you would never say yes to me too I might've hooked up with lots of girls and when they wanted more like a relationship I would say no because I was in love with you in the way you made me laugh, the way you looked, I was in love with everything of you and I hoped one day you would tell me you feel the same"
"This things doesn't matter now I'm in a relationship with Bryan and I love him" I walk away from him I sit on the couch silently trying to digest all these things it's too hard the whole memory comes back rolling inside my head
"Was it so hard to tell that to me" I hear him from behind he wears his shoes I get up and move towards him
"What do you want me to do?" I say standing in front of him he opens the door half and gets in between the door his face towards me and one foot outside the house
"I just wanted you to tell me that you love me" he says as he moves out and stand outside his back towards me
I move out to tell him that I no more love him I'm in love with Bryan
I stand there still when I see him standing in front of
"Bryan!"