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CHAPTER 31

The routine was the same for quite some time: going to school, visit the Ted's after school, chat with mum and grandma, chat over the phone, sleep.
Dad had never showed up since that talk, honestly I wanted to see him though. Weird as it may sound.
I hadn't made any feelings known to Flen, I was doing a pretty good job hiding it. I don't know why I was doing it anyway.

Maybe today would be different, just maybe.
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I was walking to the washrooms over the second break period. Then he closed me in around him!
"Weren't you taught manners?" I asked furiously,trying to break free.
But am sure you already know that was futile, he was strong.
"Just stay calm and we'll get done with this in a minute Linn,please? " he pleaded or let's just say he smoothed his voice a little to a plea.
"This? What's this 'this' I have to do with you? "
He looked at me intently, a calmness displayed across his face. In fact he was smiling!
Well, I didn't even want to turn my head around. You know what a break period means? It means people are out, and anyone could be watching us; since he had made no efforts in cornering me at some discrete place at least!
I just hope Leah will be the last person to see this.
"I told you I like you, but you ain't making any effort at giving me a chance. Why Linn? A chance to prove to you I mean it is all I need, please!"
Oh, so this was 'this.'
"OK, could you do please allow me my personal space first? " I asked pushing him away just to confirm it.
And he did!
"Thanks."
"You're welcome. Now tell me, what's your answer? "
Trust me, I felt like hurling insults his way, call him names, slap his senses back, or even beat the shit out of him if I could; but I didn't.
I just felt angry, annoyed, furious, raged...
"You're despicable!" That's all I managed to say,then walked away.
Why did some people have to be so stupid?

OK, that was not the only thing. The big issue here actually was the fact that May knew nothing about it. She was still under the veil of Bill's 'love!'What would happen if she found out what's happening, worse being that I, her best friend, was involved!
I just felt angry at myself, I was doing it wrong! She had to know it. She was my best friend. But how?
I felt completely helpless, I wanted to cry so hard.
"Hey Linn, how are you sweetheart? "
I heard that cheerful voice ahead of me. Gabriel.
I wished to try fake a smile at least, but the tears flowed instead. He came pulled me in for a hug, and believe me, I cried.
This was the tonic I needed. I wanted to ask him why it felt unfair but he shushed me instead, "Shhh... Just let it out first, you don't have to say anything at the moment."
Wow! How did some people manage to be this sweet?
I stayed there for whoever knows how long. Actually, it was the end of the break period bell that alerted me. Maybe I'd have fallen asleep there, who knows?
"Oh, sorry. I just... "
"You don't have to explain anything, just go clean your face because you look... "
"Don't even finish it, " I silenced him then turned to where I had originally intended to go before I got caught in all these mess.
This time I managed to smile at him. He deserved it.
Getting out of the washroom, I saw him still standing where I left him.
"Hey! Don't you have a class to attend? " I asked poking his ribs playfully.
"Ouch! Be gentle next time! " He teased rubbing the affected area, if there was any even.
"Tell me, why are you still here? " I asked with seriousness this time.
"I don't know. I just wanted to wait for you."
Well, it sounded so genuine and concerned. I felt it.
"Thanks."
"Want to talk about it? "
This was more than I expected of him.
Well, I had a Religious Education next,but I thought maybe it'd be good to miss it just this once. I never miss classes, believe me.

By the end of the short one hour talk, I felt myself again. I was this happy Linn. Gabby was surely a friend to keep. His concerns were deep, his words comforting and his presence soothing.
And now, I knew what I had to do; I had to look for time and tell May.

It was different.