"fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck"you guys may be wondering why am swearing this fine beautiful morning.Well to answer your curiosity someone and that someone being me woke up late AGAIN only this time there was no maddy to wake her up and that her being me. So now as am running to my drama class which am 10minutes late for, I can only imagine what excuses I am going to give Mr Grey."fuck uhm.well you see mr grey the thing is Maddy's down with the flu so I had to check on her before I left my apartment, that's why am late"naa that's to good to be true, sides he saw her yesterday,"Uhm you see sir.. Uhm well the thing is... Aaaaaaaah! fuck i suck at excuses"all of you may be wondering why am so paranoid ,it's only a class no big deal. yh I know! The thing is i was supposed to go through a scene with Mr Grey to our whole drama class but sadly am... SHIT!. Am now 30minutes late. how's that even possible?. I kept drifting my way through our hallway and students who kept looking at me like am some hobo or some shit,if only they knew how screwed I was now. Finally I got to class, now 40minutes late. Aaah joy! I opened the door only to be greeted by the multiple pair of eyes from my colleagues and a not so pleased look from Mr Grey. Shit! If only I wasn't a sleep whore.
"Aaaah glad you could join us miss star,for a second I thought you wouldn't be coming ,though your an hour late"mr grey said checking his watch"which leaves us with approximately 1hr before the end of our class"i couldn't say anything I just kept giving him the best apologetic gaze I could give, hopefully.. Just hopefully he'll let it go.
"I'm soo sorry Adam i forgot to set my alarm"well some of you may wonder why I call my drama teacher by his first name, well the thing is me and Mr Grey also known as Adam Montgomery Grey is like a brother to me ,he was and has been there for me through my darkest days and he's never for once let me down. Now most of my peers will think that we are in a relationship. nope.The only relationship we have is strictly platonic. Nothing more, nothing less.
Mr Grey just gave me another disapproving look before he spoke again"well since you are here we might as well go through the scene"
Shit! For a second i thought that I escaped acting in front of everyone.i forced a smile on my face "wonderful"dont get me wrong I love acting, I just get a little stage fright that's all, sometimes it just takes the right push to get me acting.
Mr Grey just smiled at my sarcasm. Only him could know how jittery I get performing and still not bother to care, in his own words ..it's to help you for the future....such inspiration.
"alright class me and April are going to act out a scene, something whipped up from head. Now I expect you all to take notes "the class hummed in response and Mr Grey gave me that look, let the play begin..
I sniffled "why do I have to let go?, why do I have to move on?,why do I need closure?, what if I wanna be miserable just drowning in grieve"i said tears flowing down my face. In that moment everything clicked to my own life and it felt more real to me rather than it being pretence, Mr Grey felt it though but still went with the flow.
"you have to-He paused looking between me and the whole class then continued-"that's what he would have wanted, what's it been a year? Yh I know it's hard, I know you loved him but you have to know that he isn't coming back"i took a sharp intake of breath, I just looked at him and then our audience, if any of them were any smarter they would have realised how this supposed pretence play, had turned to something real but apparently they all were still oblivious.idiots. I took that as my cue to leave not that it was part of the play but because that's what I wanted to do but before I could leave mr grey stopped me and that's when I let my emotions go. Most of it though.
"don't touch me, how can you say that ?how could you be so heartless?how could you expect me to just forget... Huh.. Forget about everything... Huh.. How? "tears were flowing down my face like a waterfall and I was hyperventilating but yet my idiotic peers still thought it was part of the play. Mr Grey looked regretful realising what he shouldn't have said, he opened his mouth to explain but I cut him off.
"save it! You know you actually sound like just like her, exactly the same thing you said except she wasn't heartless enough to make it clear that he's gone for good. You see while most of you got to spend your last days with him I couldn't, why some of you got to tell him you loved him one last time I couldn't. I never got to say goodbye, never even got one last kiss, and never got to say I love you one last time.soo forgive me for not wanting to move on and get a fucking goddamn CLOSURE!"I yelled but then I said with my voice low one final thing"i can never stop loving him even if I tried, it's just hurts more. I still love him and won't stop,so what's the point of moving on?"I shrugged my shoulders then looked at Mr Grey. We were lost in our own world until we heard claps and yells then snapped out of it and smiled fakely at everyone. I looked around everyone's expression "oh good no one suspects a thing"i was still checking everyone's faces until my eyes landed on a pair of blue, grey and green eyes who were also looking at me, and from the looks they were giving it seemed that they knew something was wrong especially green eyes. I quickly averted my gaze and met with Mr Grey's but he was already looking behind me.seems we were to into out play that we didn't hear them come in..
Mr Grey smiled but it didn't reach his eyes"aaaah Mr Adams, Mr Brooks and Mr sky so nice of you to join us"they bobbed their heads in greeting. Blue eyes came towards me and stuck out his hands in which I took "hey! Am Kyle"and I nodded,he then went on to introduce his friends"this right here is Cole and Apollo "
"Uhmm hi! nice to meet you, am April. April star"i said smiling politely and shaking both their hands. Green eyes who happened to be Apollo kept looking at me but I smiled nothingless.Before it could get more awkward than it already was my phone beeped notifying that I had a message.
Maddy🐩
Hey!
Me
Hey!
Is everything alright?
Maddy🐩
Uhm well.. You see the thing is your mom's by the apartment. Seems kinda serious, you need to get here ASAP
I read the message utterly confused as to why my mom was even in town but answered nonthingless.
Me
Sure I'll be there soon.
Maddy🐩
Alright.
I locked my screen and looked at Mr Grey who was still chatting with the new bees, when his eyes met mine I signalled to my phone and mouthed my mom and he nodded his head permitting me to leave, I quickly took my things and left but not before waving the guys goodbye and getting another intense gaze from Apollo. I guess not everyone believed our play. And took the root down to my apartment.
Hey guys hope you liked this chapter.
Esther💟
