It had been over two weeks since Cameron's arrest and since i spoke to apollo, i knew that i wasn't being fair avoiding him it's just that i needed space, i needed to be on my own.
I woke up to my alarm blaring turning it off i checked the time 4:30pm I groaned rubbing my eyes before looking around my room i was the only one in the apartment maddy had gone to see her grandma persuading me to come with her but i declined after i had left campus that day i had called ethan who was already on his way to meet me then we went home meeting my friends there already waiting for me,we had savored the news of Cameron's arrest but what made it shocking was the fact that we weren't as happy as we thought we would be.relieved?yes, happy?no,but we were there for eachother so that's all that mattered,truth is i still felt bothered even though i had my friends with me in which i was really grateful for i still felt like something was missing and me being all alone was what i needed that moment.
I got off from my bed making my way out of my room I went to the kitchen checking our fridge for anything to eat then groaned when i saw that there was nothing there, i then made my way back to my room stomach rumbling with hunger then i took a shower and dressed up then took my car keys from the counter and made my way out taking the route to starbucks,when i got there i packed then went in buying myself a coffee and cake, after paying for my order i made my way out only to bump into someone and that someone being alice,she looked at me shock written all over her face before she looked at her friends who were completely oblivious as to what was going on ,I passed them not putting much thought to it but before i could reach my car i was stopped "April wait!" I stopped in my tracks and focused my attention to the parking lot that was in my view "Why did you do it?" I asked her, i knew she was the one who testified, i didn't have proof but i just knew i was right and seeing her speechless only confirmed my thoughts "I mean why now all of a sudden. You had the last two years ago to talk so why do it two years later" I was starting to get pissed off by her lack of silence and also the fact that i had to remember that night
Taking a step towards her but she didn't look at me" I need you to just answer this question that's all I'm asking nothing more but that" this seems to have gotten her attention because she looked up at me, taking a deep breath i asked her the same question i had been asking myself for the last two years and yet getting no answer "Why?"
when i said that word she had a pained expression on her face as she spoke "Carter was like a brother to me " I scoffed shaking my head i was about to answer when i was cut off "I know you don't believe me but he was, i know nothing i say can change anything because what's done is done and I'm already two years late-.she paused eyes still locked on mine holding regret and pain before she directed her gaze to the floor sighing.-"I know you think i helped out with what happened on that day-well maybe i did for keeping quiet and not testifying" she said which only made me look at her with confusion,no this can't be right.. right.
"I didn't know about what my brother and his team planned to do, i never knew that was the reason he said i should stall you, all he said was to keep you busy so as to prepare you and Carter's anniversary gift- .she paused shaking her head tears brimming her eyes-"i never knew he had other plans-cause i would have stopped it,i would have never taken you away and he'd still be here" Just the thought of carter being here with me made tears well up in my eyes and my heart ache he would have been here I looked at Alice who already had her eyes on me "It may have looked like i was a part of it with everything i did and said- she looked at me regret all over her face,guess she meant months ago when we met at this coffee shop
-"but that was my way of dealing with the grieve and i know that doesn't excuse anything but i just needed you to know. I testifying against my brother was the best decision i could ever make but though it took me two years to ever come out and i know no amount of apology can change what happened but i just felt you should know"-.she paused then looked at me intently.-"I loved carter, he was more of a brother to me than Cameron and if i had known i would have stopped it.But i didn't"She finished fresh tears slipping from her eyes before she wiped it away with her hand, i kept my gaze on her not knowing what to say,still processing this new information.
She turned around about to make her way into the coffee shop when i spoke up "why did you tell me this?"she turned around contemplating what to say before she looked at me then smiled sadly"Because this is my closure" she turned back around and entered the shop without a backward glance.
I remained glued in my position looking towards the entrance of starbucks with only one word which kept replaying and replaying in my head.
Wow.
