Hook, Line & Sinker

Chapter 19

Chapter 19: "I thought there were only two kinds of love: the kind you would kill for and the kind you would die for. But with him, it was the kind of love I would live for."

Nangalumbaba ako at napabuntong-hininga. I lost count of how many times I have sighed. I only have a few days left before we go back to Cebu. It will take some time before Shin and I can meet again, and it makes me so sad. Sure we can talk and see each other through videocall, but it's not the same. Iba pa rin yung nayayakap at nakakasama ko siya. 

Isa pa sa mga pino-problema ko ay yung mga babaeng may gusto sa hon-hon ko. Just the other day when we went to the convenience store to buy ice cream, there was a group of girls and they were obviously swooning over him. Yung isa ay tumayo pa at mukhang lalapit sa kanya kaya mabilis akong yumakap sa braso niya at hinila na siya paalis.

And then there's Ally. She's so beautiful, smart, and sexy. Plus, she's always with Shin while I'm away. Paano kung mahulog ang loob ng hon-hon ko sa kanya. At kung hindi man sa kanya ay sa iba naman na mga nakapaligid sa kanya?

"Uy ganda, okay ka lang ba?"

"Ate Lottie, what should I do?" I sighed again.

Tumigil siya sa paglilinis at lumapit sa akin. "Ha? Bakit? Ano ba ang problema?"

"Tingin ko malapit na akong mabaliw, Ate." 

Napakamot siya ng ulo. "Ano ba ang nangyayari sa'yo, Ganda?"

I just smiled weakly at her and went upstairs. Nagkulong ako maghapon sa kwarto. I swiped open my phone and looked at the photos I took with Shin. Halos lahat ay hindi siya nakangiti dahil sapilitan lang ang pagkuha ko. Sa iba naman ay hindi siya nakatingin. I sighed. Iilan lang yata ang mga matitino namin na picture.Napatingin ako sa may pinto ng may kumatok.

It was Shin. "It's time for dinner."

"Wala pa akong gana."

Pumasok siya at umupo sa gilid ng kama. "Are you not feeling well?" he asked as touched my forehead.

I smiled weakly. "Okay lang ako." I held his hand with my two hands. Inilapit ko iyon sa mukha ko. 

"What's the matter?"

I looked at his face. He seems worried about me. Lumapit ako sa kanya at nag-unan sa kandungan niya. "Hon-hon, ilang araw na lang babalik na kami sa Cebu. Bakit ganon? Pakiramdam ko mas matagal pa iyong pinaghintay ko na magkasama tayo ngayong sem break. Masyadong mabilis ang oras."

Hindi siya kumibo. Hinaplos-haplos niya lang ang ulo ko. 

"Just the thought that we have to part again makes me so sad." I swallowed hard, thinking if I should tell him what's bothering me or not. 

He looked at me. "What is it?"

I bit my lower lip. "Kase hon-hon, naisip ko lang.. sobrang gwapo mo. Ang dami tuloy nagkakagusto sa'yo. What if.. what if while I'm away ma-fall ka sa iba?"

I grimaced when he flicked my forehead. "How is that possible when I only see you?" 

Napabangon ako sa sinabi niya at umupo paharap sa kanya. "Talaga? Kahit hindi ako matalino? Kahit wala ako sa kalingkingan ni Ally? Kahit hindi niya ako kasing-ganda? Kahit mas madalas mo siyang kasama kesa sa akin?"

He tilted his head. "What about some trust, Tam?" He breathed out. "All along, I thought you had faith in me. In us. Wow. Wala pala."

I gasped and made a gesture with my hands to deny that. "Hon-hon, hindi ganon! May tiwala ako sa'yo."