My Psycho

XXI. The gun

KENZIE'S POV

Johnny had gotten a little drunk and so when we got home we both crashed out on the bed, cuddled and went to sleep

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JOHNNY'S POV

CRASH
BANG

"dude! Shhhh" 

I woke up with a jolt
What the hell was that!

I looked across from me and Kenzie started to stir
"Hey what's wrong?" She mumbled

"I think someone's in the apartment" I whispered to her

"What!" She said tucking under the covers

"Don't worry I'll sort it out"

I said getting out of bed and pulling some shorts on

I peaked my head out from behind the door to see the guys from that party last night
Shit
Kenzie was already scared of them and now they're in her apartment
What am I going to do
The gun. My gun that I had on the first day!
I need to get it
But how. She'll question me when she sees it
I hid it in the ceiling in the bathroom by my room. I just need to get in there

"Hey Kenz I just need to get something, don't go out. I'll be right back okay" I whispered

"What! Where are you going?!" She replied while I started opening the vent to my room

"I just need to get something okay!" I said kissing her forehead and climbing into the vent

When I got into my room I quickly closed the door and went into the bathroom. I lifted up one of the tiles on the ceiling and took my gun out
That's when I heard a scream
Shit. Kenzie.

I listened for a minute and heard the guys speak

"What are we going to do now!"

"We have to keep her hostage. There's no way I'm going to jail"

"Your right but if her dad starts looking for her we're dead"

That's it.
I burst through the door to see one of the guys arms around Kenzies chest, restricting her
I held the gun up
"Let her go!"

They all froze

"Bro he has a gun"

"Shit"

"Let's go"

They pushed Kenzie forward and ran out of the apartment leaving the bags they had on the floor
That's when I realised Kenzie was looking at me. In fear.
She was scared of me
Not of the guys and the fact they had hold of her
Because of me
Me
Oh god. I knew this would happen

"K-kenz?" I said lowering the gun

She just stared at me and her eyes began to water

"Baby?-"

"W-why do you have a g-gun in my apartment?" She said quietly

"Look okay I'm s-sorry-"

"No! Why do you have that in my home and haven't told me" she interrupted

She started to cry and tears ran down her cheeks

"F-for protection" I mumbled

"Protection from WHAT. You only moved here a couple weeks ago" she yelled

I didn't know what to say. I stood still, staring at her

"Well? Aren't you going to say anything" she harshly said
"And that's not the only thing! When people are in your house and your in this situation you do not leave someone by themselves and say dont go out because you know what! I didn't go out and they still found me!" She added

"Baby I'm s-"

"Don't baby me" she said pointing her finger at me

"I-in my old house I didn't feel very safe. One day someone broke into my house and beat me up while robbing me. I guess the gun helps me feel safe" I said looking down

I hate lying to her. It wasn't right but I couldn't tell her. I couldn't let everything we have end right this moment

"So you don't feel safe with me?"

"Of course I do! That's why I haven't touched my gun since I got here!" I pleaded

"Are you lying to me? Because we need trust you know that!" She cried

"I'm not lying" I said quietly

She nodded slightly and looked down crying
I walked over to her and engulfed her into a hug
She cried into my shoulder as I comforted her
"I was so sacred" she mumbled

"I know. I know baby. Me too" I replied

I stroked her head
She leaned back and looked at me with red puffy eyes
"I think that was our first fight?" She joked

"Yeah" I said laughing pulling her closer to me
I leaned down and gently kissed her

"So I take it your not drunk anymore?" She giggled

"Hmm no don't think so" I replied kissing her again

"What's the time?" She said softly

"Uhhhh 3:50am" I said looking at my watch

"Ughh how am I meant to sleep now" she said with her head in her hands

"Who said you had to sleep?" I smirked

"Oh shut up! My body needs sleep! We can do that stuff tomorrow" she said smiling and rolling her eyes

"Alright alright. Why don't you try sleep? I'll be right with you" I suggested

She nodded and so we walked back into her bedroom and got into bed
Kenzie eventually went off to sleep
But I couldn't. The fact I had to lie to her kept replaying in my mind. She was so scared of me. I was her boyfriend she shouldn't have any reason to be scared of me
But she was

I watched as she slept. She was so peaceful and calm. The complete opposite of my personality. But I wasn't wrong when I told Lauren I had changed. I haven't done a single bad thing since I came here. It's just hard to try and tell Kenzie the truth considering how badly she took the fact I had a gun. Having a gun compared to be a criminal is a big difference. I don't think I can live without her. She grounds me. Makes me feel alive. Gives me a reason to stay good.

(A.N) hiiii I know this chapter is shorter than usual but I didn't have much inspiration about this chapter but the next one will be better and longer :)) and thank you all so much for 1.4K+  reads I love you guys❤️