My Psycho

XXIX. Meeting up

KENZIE'S POV

It has been a couple days since Johnny texted me. I was still in my room, depressed. Annie and Emily helped me feel a bit better and took my mind off of him for a little while but the pain was still there
I don't think the pain would ever go away. The words he texted me played over and over in my head:
You know, I never lied about my feelings
Was that the truth? Or was he just using me for cover from my dad? Annie and Emily weren't with me today because they were busy scoping out that pizza delivery guy, Asher! They asked if I wanted to join but I wasn't feeling up to it so I let them go without me

After a while it was lunch time but I didn't feel like eating. Instead, I drank. I opened up the cabinet in my kitchen and took out the big bottle of Vodka that sat at the front. Was i really going to get drunk? I mean why not?

A few drinks later my head was feeling a little dizzy. I obviously wasn't thinking straight because I don't know why I did the next thing

ME
let's do it. Let's meet

IDIOT LIAR
wait really? Are you sure?

ME
yep. Tomorrow at 12 for lunch?

IDIOT LIAR
okay cool. I am sorry Kenz

ME
I know. Where should we meet?

IDIOT LIAR
My place? Well I'm at Lauren and haydens

ME
Great. See you tomorrow

Ohhhh no did I really do that?

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It was the next day and I thought I'd still meet Johnny because I said I would. I know I know, it's not the healthy thing to do, but we had already agreed.

I went to get dressed and tried to not make a big deal and dress up so I wore some jeans and a hoodie.
I couldn't turn to Emily for her car because then she'd find out where I was going. So I left my apartment and walked down the street to the bus stop.
There were a few other people stood with me and I think we were all waiting for the same bus
I didn't know whether to be happy or annoyed that I did this to myself.
I guess I could get closure or something which would make me happy?
No
It wouldn't make me happy. I need him in my life. I could try move on but I think he'd always be in my heart.
The bus finally arrived and I was last on. When I got my ticket I looked for a seat, and it was quite packed and warm so I had to maneuver around other passengers. I found my seat and put my hood up, with earbuds in.
The next song that played made me think of Johnnys and mine relationship:

A single tear dropped down my cheek and I wiped it away. A few more songs played and I finally came to my stop
When I got out I prepared myself to speak to him ,trying to work out what to say
My dad would kill me if he knew what I was doing! I hope he doesn't find out for my sake and for Johnny's.

I walked up the steps and into Lauren and Haydens apartment. I spoke to the door man and he led me to the stairs that would take me to Hayden's place.
I suddenly felt a hand grab my arm and pull me to the side
"Wha-"
"Shhh"

I was pulled into another stair case off of the side and it was dark so I couldn't see who was with me
We then entered this room labelled "basement" 
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he lights flickered on and I turned around. Stood Infront of me was a vulnerable, heart broken Johnny

"Johnny" I mumbled staring into his green, piercing eyes

"You came" he chuckled lightly

"Of course I said I would" I responded looking down

He used his hand to gesture to a small bed in the side of the room
We both walked over to it and sat down next to each other.
No one said anything for about 5 minutes, we  were just looking down or Infront of ourselves
I decided to break the silence. I came here to talk after all

"Sooo your staying in...the basement?"

"Oh! Uh not really I'm staying in Laur and Haydens place but sometimes when I want time to myself I come down here" he stated, avoiding eye contact and patting the bed

"Y-you look good" he stuttered

"I don't feel it" I mumbled

"You don't?" He responded finally looking me in the eye

I shook and my head and chuckled
"Do you?"

"God no i-i didn't know I could feel this way" he huffed

"Really?" I said perking up a little at the thought of him experiencing the same pain

"Yeah. I hate it"

"So do I"

We sat in silence again for a couple minutes

"Look Kenz I'm so sorry, if I could reverse time I'd never threaten Emily or come to you"

"don't say that!"

He looked at me with a tilted head in confusion

"If you had never come to me, I'd never have experienced love, excitement, happiness... and pain" I told him, grabbing his hand as a reflex

He looked down and I started to remove it but he stopped me with his other hand

"Love?" He looked me in the eye

The distance between us grew shorter and shorter
"Yeah. Love" I mumbled, looking at his lips

He leaned in the whole way, colliding our lips. I felt fireworks go off inside my body. Both of his hands cupped my face as he deepened the kiss. He pulled away and leaned back, looking in my eyes
"I love you too" he said before smashing his lips onto mine again
I know this is bad. But I need this. I need him. I don't care anymore if my dad hates him or wants him in jail. We'll find a way because love always does
One of his hands move to my waist and gripped me while the other holds him up by pushing on the bed
He leaned down helping himself to be on top of me, without breaking the kiss
I arched my back and pulled him closer to me by his neck
"I love you" I said between kisses

"I love you" he replied

I tugged at the bottom of his top so he reached his arm up, above his head and pulled his top off
My hands wandered all over his chest, god I missed him
Next my hands found their way to his jeans. I slowly unbuttoned them and he helped pull them down, throwing them to the side.
I leaned up and took my hoodie off so I could feel his hands against my skin
Suddenly my jeans were thrown across the floor like his and we were both left in our underwear. We explored each others bodies and I could tell we both missed the feel of the other one. His tongue traced my lips and I opened my mouth so that he could enter. It was so very clear. We loved each other more than anything.

(A.N) this is so sad!!!! I only have like 3 more chapters and it's the end :(( thank you for 3K!!!! Love you❤️