My Psycho

XXVII. Pizza day

KENZIE'S POV

Emptiness. That's all I felt.
I think it had been about 2 weeks since I found out, I can't fully remember how long ago since the days just mix into one. I miss him but I don't. I hate him but I love him. I'm stuck for words and don't know what to do. I've been sat in my room for a while and haven't spoken to any of my friends apart from Emily. I haven't been in contact with Lauren and Hayden because I presumed they knew this whole time and I couldn't bare to face that fact. I felt bad for not speaking with Annie as much as I had but I think Emily told her it was just a hard breakup, nothing about Johnny being a criminal.
BING
I searched for my phone all over my bed. Where the hell was it? I reached behind an old pizza box and found it. I had a notification from a group chat with Emily and Annie:

Sisters before misters 💪💅

ANNIEBANANNIE❤️
hey guys I made this group chat so that we can all keep up with what's going on at the moment. I understand your a bit vulnerable Kenz and we just want to be here for you

EMI❤️
Yeah Annie I agree thanks for creating this chat

ME
Guys I just want to be left alone
I appreciate the thought but I don't want to talk to anyone right now

ANNIEBANANNIE❤️
Babes I know it's hard but it will be better if you talk about it! No matter what it is you can tell me

ME
Idk it's pretty hard to understand

ANNIEBANANNIE❤️
Please tell me I promise to try understand
read, 11:23am

EMI❤️
Kenz we can see you've read it and we really just want to help

ME
Just leave me alone for a bit guys

I threw my phone down and burst into tears. I didn't think I had any tears left to cry but I clearly do.
I picked my phone up again to see a couple unread messages but I ignored them. Instead I went into my call log and clicked "pizza delivery" for the 3rd time. The phone rang and I layed on my bed staring at the ceiling, phone by my ear while thinking how different it would be if I never met him.
"Ma'am?" Someone through the phone called which woke me from my day dream

"Oh uh sorry just repeat my order from before?" I asked closing my eyes

"Sure but don't you think you've had quite a lot? It's a bit unhealthy" the man on the phone said

"Do you know what else is unhealthy? HEART BREAK! Now...please I just want my pizza"

"Of course. It will be right over"

I hung the phone up and took a few deep breaths. I had never experienced heart break like this. Not even with Ashton and I was with him longer than I was with Jo- I can't say even say his name without bringing tears to my eyes
KNOCK KNOCK

if that was the pizza guy he came super soon? I thought. Ugh I can't let the pizza get cold though so I may aswell just check if it's him
I groaned while rolling out of bed. I walked, slowly and hunched over until I reached the door
There was another knock
I looked through the peep hole and saw Annie and Emily
Ugh what are they doing here!

"I told you to leave me alone!" I called through the door

"Please hunny just let us in" Emily pleaded