My Psycho

XXVIII. Running away

JOHNNY'S POV

(A.N) this chapter is set at the same time as the last one but it's Johnny pov instead of Kenzies btw :)

It's been about two weeks I guess since I last saw her. She had managed to break down all the walls I spent years trying to build up. She wrecked them in a matter of weeks and I don't know how. I couldn't re build them yet because that would mean shutting her out, which I couldn't do-i loved her too much to just turn my feelings off with a click. I was sat in Hayden and Lauren's hotel room, waiting while they were out getting food for tonight.

It was undescribable how much my heart ached. She was my world and without her, I didn't exist. I never told her I loved her but looking back at what happened between us I really wished i did, maybe then we could have had a chance?

The truth is, I was running away. Her dad already knew my name and my appearance, not to mention she could tell him anything she wanted. I was going to Spain. That way they'd hopefully never find me.
I was laying on the bed when I decided to get up and get a drink at the bar. I picked up my jacket and wallet and walked out. I made my way through the narrow, dark staircase that led to the ground floor. When I got there I saw the sign that showed the way to the bar. I arrived at the door and looked in. It seemed pretty packed, there must be a party going on or something. I guess that's good though, it meant it would be harder for an officer to find me in the crowd.

I opened the door and the strong smell of alcohol and smoke hit me straight away. It wasn't anything im not used too, people would always find ways to smuggle this stuff into prison without getting caught. I squeezed past the drunk, sweaty people and stood at the bar

"Can I get a beer?" I shouted o the barman

He didn't reply, just nodded.
A few minutes later the barman returned with a beer in his hand and placed it on the counter for me to take
I handed over the money for the drink and simply thanked him.
I guess I hoped that getting drunk would take my mind off her. Anything to help with the pain.

Suddenly I felt a hand reach over onto my shoulder. I turned around and saw a blonde, drunk, woman.
"H-heyyy youuu" she slurred bending her head over my shoulder aswell

"Hi" I replied, removing her hand and her head followed

"What is a h-handsome man like youuu d-doing all aloneee" she managed to get out

"Just having a drink" I coldly replied
I know I said anything for the pain but I didn't mean this. This reminded me of our relationship, the fact that I loved her so I much I didn't want any other girl.

"Can i-i join youuu" she said poking my arm before tripping over her own feet
I caught her so that she didn't face plant the floor but I wish I didn't because now she sat down on the stall next to me

"Sooo w-whats your name h-handsome"

"Johnny"

"Wellllll Johnny. It's your l-lucky day, i-im Crystal"

What the hell can she just leave me alone. I hate drunk people they never get hints. I was so cold in my responses in the hope that she'd leave.

"Can you just leave me alone please?" I begged, looking down at my drink

"Oohh let me guessss. Youu havee a girlllllfriendddd" she said playing with her hair, looking at me

"...ex" I sighed

"O-oh honey! It's okay. I'm greattt at advice!" She told me

I just looked at her with a raised eyebrow

"Text her! Right now! I betttt 100000% that she misses yOuu" she huffed

Did she? Miss me? Is it possible?

"Really?" I questioned

I know I said I hated drunks and usually I wouldn't listen to them but the fact shes said to text Kenzie got me intregued

"Yup! Dooo it now" she smiled seeming pretty happy with herself for helping me out

So I did. I reached into my pocket and pulled out my phone. My finger lingered over Kenzies name in my contacts

"DO IT NOW" the drunk girl yelled in my ear

"Alright alright" I huffed, rolling my eyes

I pressed Kenzies name and texted her

ME
Hi kenz. I know you still hate me but there's something I need to do really soon and I guess I just wanted to ask if I could see you one more time?

KENZ❤️❤️
seriously?! You think after EVERYTHING I'd come see you!

ME
Idk Kenzie. I guess it was worth a try. You know I never lied about my feelings and im sorry I never told you about me
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Well, did I really expect anything different? Of course she was going to hate me. At least it was worth a try, I shrugged

"AwW whatt happened? D-did she text b-backk?" That Drunk girl slurred

"Yeah she uh messaged me back"

"Whatt d-did she ssay?"

"Nothing great" I chuckled
"But that doesn't matter. It's over. I'm going, and I can't come back" I mumbled

"W-what do you mmean?! Your leaving m-me?"

"No not you!" I joked
I frowned
"I'm moving to Spain. And I can't come back here" I added looking down

I finished my drink and returned back upstairs to my room. When I arrived Hayden and Lauren were ready back.

"WHERE THE HELL WERE YOU! WE TOLD YOU NOT TO LEAVE" Lauren yelled at me

Why the hell did she yell at me. My blood began to boil. I re lived every emotion I had felt over the past 2 weeks and realised this was my breaking point. I tried to contain it but I couldn't. I was too hurt and didn't know how to cope with that. I didn't want to take it out on my friends but I couldn't keep it bottled up any longer

"IM SORRY! I NEEDED TO GET OUT! IM SO SICK OF THIS. I MISS HER AND I CANT DO ANYTHING" I screamed back, making Lauren and Hayden speechless
"I love her" I mumbled

"Love?" Hayden questioned

"Yep. With all my heart" I continued, looking down, my eyes becoming blurry

"Oh Johnny! I'm so sorry" Lauren said running over and hugging me

(A.N) hii so I'm sad there's only about 2 or 3 more planned chapters :((( I've had so much support and i wish it never had to end haha. Anyway thank you❤️