My Psycho

XXV. Panic

KENZIE'S POV

Today was the day! The day my father was finally coming home. I hadn't seen him for about a month and a half and I really did miss him. The last time we spoke he promised that he'd be back for good, even if they didn't catch this guy they've been looking for. He said he was arriving later today so I had a bit of time to spend with Johnny before he got here. On that note, Johnny's been acting a little weird since last night. I don't know, maybe he's just nervous to meet my dad and everything?  But I bet they'll get on amazing, they're quite similar in the things they like.
And yes I'm still in love with Johnny!! I don't think anything could change the way I feel about him. He's the guy I've been waiting for my entire life. Even when I was with Ashton, I knew something was missing. That something was Johnny.
Me and Johnny had a relaxing day today again and so now I'm just preparing for my dad to come. I ordered some take out and so it should arrive in time. I made sure to dress nice and do some makeup to show my dad how happy I was to have him back

"This is all good babe but uh...why don't I go out and buy some um... champagne for you?" Johnny suggested while scratching his neck nervously

"But then you wont be here in time for when my dad gets in" I replied walking up to him and hugging his waist

"Oh well he's not here for me is he! He's here for you"

"But I want to introduce you to him" I said smiling

"Okay I get that, but also while I'm gone it gives you some time to catch up without me there" he replied, his hands tracing my arms

"Alright alright but be quick!" I said pecking his lips
Before replying he pulled me back in to him and he passionately kissed me for a few minutes.

"I promise" he stated while placing one last kiss on his forehead

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JOHNNY'S POV

I walked out of the apartment and ran down the stairs. I needed air
I felt like I was choking, gasping for breath, dying.
My brain felt flooded by bad thoughts
'shes going to find out and leave me'
'hes going to put me back in prison'
'ill never meet anyone else in my life'
'im going to lose the only person I've ever truly loved'
What? I stood still
Loved? I'm in love?
I guess I am. Oh god I love her! I can't lose her, not now! No no no. And i can't tell her I love her because if she finds out and I tell her it won't make a difference if im going to prison anyway!
I couldn't walk out now, if I never returned she'd hate me even more! So I decided to carry on like normal. Try to retain my breath and get the champagne. Nope didn't help. I still couldn't breathe and I was now panicking. I was walking with my head down, and heart pounding until I felt a thud and was pushed back
"Aaahhh!"
I looked up
"Oh my god Hayden! I'm sorry I'm just freaking out and I don't know what to do and he's coming home and he'll send me back as soon as he sees me but I can't leave her because she'll hate me and I could never have her hate me and oh god I'm sorry-" I rambled

"Hey bro calm down! Deep breaths! What's wrong? And say it slowly so that you make sense" Hayden nodded

"K-kenzie. Her d-dad is coming home. Her dad is the c-chief and he's been out of town looking for-for me!"

"Oh...god. Okay...whens he-he coming?"

"Today" I said with tears coming to my eyes
"I-i can't lose her Hayden. I just can't"

"I know bro just just calm down alright. You have to go back shes expecting you. You'll just have to act natural and avoid certain questions...and just avoid being alone with her dad" Hayden tried to reassure me

"O-okay w-well I need to get back they're waiting on me for champagne" I said slowly then looking up at Hayden

"Alright then go and remember what I said!"

"Okay"

"Okay. Bye bro I'll see you after okay!" Hayden said

"Yeah...okay. Bye" I said staring into a trance and walking off

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KENZIE'S POV

I was sat on the couch with my dad. My dad! He finally came and after a lot of hugging, laughing and a bit of crying we were sat and just chatting.
"I missed you so much sweetie" my dad said, tucking some hair behind my ear

"I missed you too dad. It just feels so unreal that your here...with me! At home!" I excitedly said while hugging him

"I know! So fill me in honey. What have I missed on my daughter growing up" he asked me smiling

"Oh well I've made some really nice new friends at school called Annie, Lauren and Hayden! There so funny and amazing and I have a boyf-"

"Wow that's great it's good your making new friends. Your still hanging out with Emily right?" He questioned

"Oh yeah of course she's my bestie. But dad I have a boyf-"

"Ah that's good honey! Ive always liked that Emily, good Influence and she doesn't get into any trouble" he interrupted...again

"Yes dad that's great but-"

"Do you still sing like you used to?"

"Every day dad, you know it's not like we haven't seen each other since I was 9, not much has changed for me hobby wise" I laughed

"Ah of course honey Im just annoyed I've missed so much in not really a long time" he chuckled

"Actually there's only one big change in my life I guess it's that I have a new boyf-"

There was a quiet knock on the door

"Who's that?" My dad asked, standing up

That must be Johnny. I haven't managed to say anything to my dad yet but hopefully be wouldn't completely freak out. I know he's the chief so past boyfriends have been scared of him but my relationship with Johnny is so much different and meant to be
I love him... he doesn't know it yet but I do.

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MEAN WHILE IN JOHNNYS POV

I entered the building and I felt my legs become weak. This is it. Either he recognises me and I go to jail...or he doesn't until someone else he knows does and I go to jail. Basically I'm going to jail. I can't leave her though. She's become apart of me I never knew I needed
I walked up the stairs, knowing at some point soon it would be over and I couldn't do anything to help it
When I reached her apartment door I could hear her laughing and talking with her dad
This was probably the hardest thing I'm ever going to have to do.
If only I told her sooner, it wouldn't be this difficult to face
I slowly lifted my hand, took a deep breath, and knocked on the door
This is it.
I love her... she doesn't know it yet but I do

(A.N) omggg get ready for the next chapterrrr! Idk if this is really a cliffhanger but heh :)) the next chapter will be out soooon I'm writing it right now! Go comment and vote! Thank you so much for 2.8K reads❤️