You Can Never Escape Me(BxB)

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Anthony Lawrence

"You mean because of..." He didn't complete his sentence but I knew that he understood me. So, I nodded slowly, waiting for his response.

He was in the gym for quite a while, but in all this time I didn't manage to fall asleep and get some rest. All my thoughts and worries were swirling around in my head, making me dizzy and anxious.

I luckily didn't have the urge to cry anymore, but my body was still shaking lightly and I felt sick.

I didn't know why I even bothered to ask Elias that question, when I knew the answer already. It would hurt, especially because of his size and because I wouldn't find it in me to relax and be comfortable enough to take him in, without feeling any pain.

I hated myself for thinking about having sex with Elias, but I guess the only way for me to not get crazy and depressed in here was to accept the truth and face reality.

And this was my reality. I would be forced to marry Elias tomorrow, be his husband for as long as he wanted me, please him whenever he wanted and die one day. That was my life.

I wished I could find it in me to just take a blade and cut my wrists open or take an overdose of medications, but I didn't have the force to kill myself yet. The thought of it scared me more, than being forced to have sex with someone I hardly knew and loathed.

"I'll try to do my best and be as gentle as possible to hopefully not cause you any pain, but it also depends on you. If you are too tense you won't be able to take me in easily, which means that I have to really push myself into you, which will obviously lead to pain," he explained calmly, looking me deep in the eyes like he wanted to show me that I could trust him. I felt his hand gently caressing up and down my back to comfort me, which surprisingly worked a little.

"But what happens if I don't manage to relax myself even if I want to?" I questioned worried. Elias said that it more depended on me, because he would be gentle and cautious, but how in the world would I be able to take the full length of his cock into me without tearing apart? The thought made me shiver out of fear.

"How were your experiences so far?" He asked calmly, which made me frown in confusion.

"My experiences?"

"Yeah, did it hurt much or did you manage to make it enjoyable?" He clarified, but I still didn't understand what he meant.

"I really don't know what you're talking about. You know that I'm a virgin-"

"I know," he interrupted me. "But did you never finger yourself?"

"Excuse me?!" I exclaimed outraged as I understood what he was talking about.

"I take this as a no," he laughed silently. "Did you at least jacked off once in your life?"

"Not everyone is as ugly and horny as you," I stated, which made him laugh even more.

"It's natural! Would you have tried it out you'd know what all the fuzz is about," he put his hand from my waist to my face. He placed it on my cheek hesitantly and caressed my lips with his thumb. "So, you are nearly completely virgin."

"Nearly?" I asked confused, because I didn't remember ever doing anything sexual.

"Your lips aren't virgin, anymore," Elias murmured and I could tell that he wasn't happy about that. "The day I visited you in the cafe, there was this girl who kissed you."

"You mean Madison?! She's in love with me since she first went to the cafe once to buy a coffee, but I didn't want to start a relationship with her, because I didn't love her back. But she can't stop trying to get me to love her and the kiss you are talking about was a one time thing that she initiated," I explained.